Bouquet of thoughts.......

Hi,

Smitten by this Beyonce song...Halo......

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace
You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away


I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo...

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You’re the only one that I want
Think I’m addicted to your light
I swore I’d never fall again
But this don’t even feel like falling
Gravity can’t forget
So pull me to the ground again

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo...

Love this song....Its good to listen.......running on my playlist now....

Last evening was bad...had a mood off...Though was very excited for the match between Arsenal and Manchester united...MAN U won the match 1-0..It was such a boring match though...Mumbai indians lost the IPL match against Punjab Lions:( .....Thats the sad thing ....Had an intension to cook Aalu samber and green peas with Garam masala.. I love it with dosa..but I wanted to cook such a kind of thing...So tried it..Finally I was 80% successful in Alu-peas masalaa..it was great with garam masala and all....So myself and nagaraju ate like hell.......I dont know the reason..One thing I have noticed..Since the day I have come here I have never slept properly...In the sense I wake up sometimes in the mid night..Sometimes at 4 AM..I just dont know what to do....In Bangalore my sleep was a switch...switch of/on....I used to sleep at 10:30 PM and wake up at 6:15 AM...Especially last night was too long for me...So many thoughts...hitting my mind ..striking it..Tried listening to music..watched TV.....But no sleep at all....Eyes were so fresh....So thought of framing these things...thoughts scattered in my mind.....I tag almost everything with love....So most of my things will be on love..Thoughts are like scattered light white clouds..which needs to be condensed, gathered to form some meaningful thing like the below one....And fall like a rainfall....I hope these words shall drench the reader....and make the mind fresh....and fill life with love....

Was watching Andaz apna apna...Its the most hillarious movie I have ever seen..And this time it was for 100 th time I was watching...Aila Juhi Chawla...Amazing movie....Aamir at his comedy best.....I always feel, Juhi chawla in the first scene looks like a boy with a wig when she will be repairing her car bending....Might be I was trying to laugh a bit by watching movie....It was like a painkiller for a wound..The laugh and smile just ended with each scene...Again my mind would be sad....Filled with thoughts....

It is raining from past few days here....Weather is so good...9 degrees....Cloudy, gloomy, wind with a tinge of cold in it......Truly romantic weather...mausam ye awesome bada....:).....And the weather forecast says it will be like this till sunday....Still planning about the Austria trip...with
excitement....

Work is too much...Need to finish off things soon and come back to India..Thats the whole intension....Lets see how it goes...And I am booked for 215 man hours...So really need to finish off things swiftly...

Paid hotel rent of 1340 Euros for one more month...So till May20th I am safe here....I just dont know I give least priority to money...I never bother about it....I did not had pin..I did not know how to check balance..I dont want to get jumbled in that finance thing....So the girl who is yet to come should have atleast this quality......managing money matters..I am still like a kid..Who will be happy if he is given enough money to eat pani puri on road side and bus fare...I like it that way...No macro management...but god does not want to relieve me of this.. By posing biggest challenges...starting from education loan to house loan...So finding it hard to manage money..I hate money....

Hairs have grown crazily long...Falling onto my eyes..I have to get it cut....Thats my weekend plans....Waiting to embrace the long weekend....3 days..sick..!!!!!!!!! I am missing my friends Anupamas marriage, karthik shimoga marriage...trip with my friends..and everyone...God...Sick thing...Missing them a lot lot and lot............And my best wishes are always there for them..

Love is a gift of one's innermost soul to another so both can be whole........This statement captured my attention...Isn't it?? we give everything to the person we love...yes the soul itself....In the sense.we never live our life once we start loving...Its about the other person...

The pain I am feeling....
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I see you staring at me,
but you never truly see,.........

why I love you, oh, so much,
when you're so out of touch...........

Feelings that we could have shared,
you flung behind without a care.

It seems so hard to let you go,
and the process is so slow.

I don't know whether I should stay,
and waste another day away.

I do know, though, that all this pain,
will soon drive me insane.

You don't feel me loving you,
and you just can't seem to get a clue.

You don't see me cry inside,
and in you I know I can't confide.

Yet still I find that you are blind,
to things meant to be kind.

You know nothing of my fears,
and are unaware of all my tears.

I know I really can't deny,
things I feel as I look you in the eye.

So who will help me make it though?
Who will tell me what to do?

How come every time I see your face,
for me there's never any space?

Maybe someday you'll see me differently,
so until then, I'll be waiting silently.


One more from the pages of life:
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At first we loved, but not again.
We met on our way,
and we talked ever since.
We stood staring at each other,
I wondered the time, we would...
Stand together. Holding hands on a lake side...
as we walk down the street,...
I wondered when our lips Would meet....

My heart is broken, u seem to ignore,
The pain I have, when u left me sore.
Our love was strong In which now your heart is blind to see,
now I feel that your love has forgotten completely about me.
Well all in all I'm heartbroken Without u by my side,
I wish we could love each other like we did that one time. ..............


You and I were the greatest thing
Laughter and smiles is what we would bring..........

We would talk on the phone, until it was time for bed
Even then I would see you, in my dreams, inside my head......

Every time I saw you, I would always smile
You could see a glow in my eyes from miles and miles

God!!!!, I wish I was still holding onto you
But you gotta man now, so what can I do?

Now when I see you, there's always a frown
Won't you please turn that sad frown upside down?

If you're not happy with this person, then just say goodbye
Because seeing you depressed, brings tears to my eyes

Today I approached you, but you didn't say a word
I still have feelings for you, haven't you heard?

I miss seeing you smile and laugh
Won't you please remember the fun we had?

Holding hands eating lunch
Wow! I miss you a whole bunch

Just ask my family and my friends, you were all I talked about
Now all I do is to never take the topic about...

I love hearing your voice; it brings a smile to my face
It's a sound that I shall always embrace

I had no idea I actually felt this way
Please tell me, why does it feel like you're pushing me away?

The reason we broke up, I don't even know why
Just thinking about you now makes me want to cry

Enough about him, he makes me sick
I miss you way more than just a little bit

I need to toughen up; I know we'll always be apart
That is the reason why right now, I have a broken heart


Signing off with these thoughts..........may god bless you all..Give life filles with love...

"One cannot discover new oceans, unless one has courage to lose sight of the shore"

” If people start criticizing you, hurting you, shouting at you.. don’t be bothered. Because in any game, spectators make noise, not the player. So just play on !”

” There are only two people who can tell the truth about yourself.. a friend who has lost his temper, or an enemy who starts loving you.”

We being the sincere workers..Happy Workers day...May 1st...........

Have a nice long weekend guys...

Loads of love,
Shashank

Crazy poetry.....

Swami Vivekananda, among other things was a great football enthusiast ! What he said all those years ago still holds true.

“Life is the biggest game man has to play between the ultimate goalposts of birth and death. His dilemma stems from his decisions and relationships; whether he should steer the ball politically or emotionally, keeping control through his creative and artistic integrity. Winning or losing depends on how fairly he tackles the game. Because the rules are already set by the invisible Referee. All he needs to do is play his matches sincerely and without guile.”

Yes life is a football game....We get hurt..We run again...our each step is watched by almighty.....He is the one to give yellow card or red card....He is the one to judge the good and bad of our deeds and punish us accordingly.....

Saw an exciting match between Barcelona and Chelsea..The UEFA cup.....both are my favorite teams..I was so Confused as to which team to support..Barcelona has my favorite player Messi.....hence will be supporting Barcelona...That guy is like a mercury..Though match ended in a draw 0-0...I was top on my toes...on the bed...sitting with a hunch back..with pillow being the target for all my aggression...and anxiety.....While watching Football I was getting a thought..If god allows me choose my role in my next lifetime..My one option will be a football player in Europe(Not a cricketer, even Ganguly can play cricket)...Here after god they will be worshipped...Really!! The energy they have..The stamina..Run continuously for 1:30 hrs is not a matter of joke....My second option will be a superstar in the field of music...Singer, guitarist, drums anything...Thats the only job where people listen to u...People love your voice...I had this great wish of being an actor, really..I wanted to be an actor....how good it will be to potray a real life character...Acting like mad..acting like a husband..acting like a father...a great feeling isn't it....This dream I had looking at the great personalities like Amitabh, Aamir khan, Rajkumar.....but now have changed my opinion after seeing the actors from kannada film industry....Some host from U2 channel...Some one who is a friend of a producer...someone who has a gang of actor friends...someone who wants to be an actor for money..someone for his livelihood..someone for girls..someone for fame...Curly hair....colored brown...facial done...learn dance...lift some weight in gym...anyone can be a hero...Whats missing importantly is the passion of art...the passion one can see in the eyes of great actors...how they take each role so seriously.......FOr instance see Aamir khan in Dil chahta hain..when he cries when his dad calls him when he will be in Australia...I am still the deewana of that scene....how real .....Thats what I cant see in any hero or what they claim as Hero material......And one more interesting thing is, if a girl is born and brought up in Bangalore...They go behind these hero materials...atleast I have seen many in Basavanagudi....one girl whom I met very recently..She is from gandhi bazaar...She is seeing one Kannada Singer.....I dont want to name the singer...And one girl whom I met in Church street ( a Bangalorean) was seeing Diganth....and craving for him................yes..this conversation can go on...but i dont want to be an actor now....this whole thing has changed my perception of acting and the actors.....They all look like a bunch of same people to me....acting looks a business more than an art....

Here I want to tell one story, a very close friend of mine...He always wanted to be an actor..He is a very good dancer..but have not seen his acting skills yet....but after our B.E we all were searching for an IT job....We were looking at the 12K money for the coolie work we do...He went to Chennai to learn acting...Seriously....he was committed to both acting and love...He went to chennai...He worked so sincerely..he learnt camera work..he was dying to get a break...He has done whatever he can for that passion....but it did not pay for him...He wasted( I dont want to use that term here but.??? rather used) these 3 -4 years to fulfill his passion...but was never successful....I wish to see him act one day...I wish him all the best...!!!! now he is working as a test engineer....back to junk software life cycle..............Where people earn money for the disease they are sure they are going to get....where people live to work and dont work to live....They try hard ...achieve few spot awards...put everything to a project which ends in disaster.....or will be sacked without thinking twice....People start loving their company...I am from Infosys..I am from WIpro and all....but company lever loves them...I feel prostitutes and software engineers are the same..Unless u r liable to the party, you are not benifited....Sell urself...earn money....

Ironically, I shall give another instance...Where once can become an actor easily...Go to Devanahalli region..Catch a guy who had 5 acres of land....he will be having 25 crores bank balance...Do maskaa to him...befriend him....impress him..Praise him...thats it ...He will give one leaf of the 25 he has.....and next day u r a star......Some love story..New hero in....2 romantic songs...color the hair...and spread ur arms like ganesh does...You are a hero.........

With these things...

Everyone has to watch this short movie:

http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

Its an amazing one....

I enjoyed the film as a whole, but the most poignant moment in it were the children of the family and the expressive faces on them as soon as the food arrived.

The joy of expectancy, the innocent looks of satisfaction on having received the food was incredible ! For them sadly, the father bringing in the food was a part of their daily routine. In their gullibility they were perhaps of the opinion that this is what food looked like, or how it was procured. Could it be that this is what food looked like ! That this was the way it was meant to be. Perhaps the father never told them where it came from. But the excitement on their faces was in my mind the largest or the greatest irony of life. They looked at this offering as being the correct and only way food would be conveyed to them.

My heart beats for those little ones for their innocence........So people going to mac-d, KFC or whatver..see the fate of them and then order..........

Since Monday, work has been my everything...........I have embraced it with all the smile....Yes work gives me immense pleasure and satisfaction...I love to work and I love when work loves me in return....I cant sit Idle..I am a paranoid....waiting for that day May31st when excitement meets reality and the dreams are played real....Yes waiting for that day.......When I fly back from here..

I am missing all the IPL matched...bhooo hoo...crazzy...Just not liking that....watching score online...Anyway will be in office till 8 PM....But I miss watchin g it live...Yesterdays match was an awesome on DD v/s Rajashtan Royals....Yousuf Pathan was too much in that match...Great one....!!

Was eating puliogre from past two days for lunch..I am kind of bored of that now....Had cooked amazing beans sambaar with some green peas...So nights dinner was fun........with egg burjee...

The team here is growing...So many people are joining here...my friend rajkumar is also coming..So Austria trip planned..It will be Konigsee- Salzburg trip for two days...in May 2nd week....

Nothing exciting...Life is going off..off and off....hee hee :)....

One kavana from my kavanadha batthalike:
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Avalu nanna hrudayadha kadha mucchi hodhalendhu alutha kooraloobahudu...
Athava ee lokadalli ello chennagi badukuthiddhale endhu kushiyalluu baalabahudhu...

Kannugalannu mucchi hrudayadha baditha kelutha, avalu marali baruva neerikshe maadalubahudhu...
athava kannu tegedhu...avalu bittu hodha savi nenapugalalli,preethi na melukuthaa badukalabahudhu...

Nan Hrudayavannu kallagisikondu, bhaavanagelannu tadedhu avalannu dweshisalubahudhu...
Athava Avalottige hanchi konda preethiyanne hrudayavannu tumbisikondu maduravaagi balabahudhu...

Nanna Naalegalanu avalige samarpisee, Sundara nennegalige hogi alli badukalubahudhu..
Athava nenneya kushi ya bhaladalle naalegalannu payanisabahudhu...

Avalu hodhalendhu alutha koorabahudu..
Athava avala hrudyakke bandha hejjegalannu neneyutha nagutha baala bahudhu..

Atthu, manasaannu katti, kallaagisi, kannu mucchi novalli kooralubahudhu..
Athava avalu helidha maatugalannu paalisuttha, kan tegedhu, preeti indha, jeevanadalli nadiyaluuu bahudhu..

Ee thava athava gala madhye...kannu mucchidaagale.......ondhu prathibimba nanna kannu galalli moodi..minchinanthe bandhu..Nanna haleya garigalige badidhu..Hosa kanasugalige chiguru kottidhe..Ee chiguridha kanassalli, preethi emba hoovu mathendhu araluvudho..aa prathibimbadha prema poojege salluvudho....Endhu nenayuthaa aa raathriya tangali yelli kulithaaga..Yeko yeno ondhu kanna neera hani muthanthe bandhu nanna kenne mele chalisuthaa nanna manassannu vichalithagolisi..Mundhe saaguthaa..Nanna tutigala hoovu mele jenanthe kangolisi..Galladanchalli bandhu ninthidhe...Aa haniyu pratibimba paada kamalagalige samarpitha embanthe adhu attha haaruvaagale...Hrudayadha hattira baruvaaga aa pratibimbaa alle gocharisi..Bandhu Hrudayadha kadha badideethalla..Illi Hrudayadha hoodotavella onagi bhara gaaladalli iruvanthe...ee ondhu hani maayavanthe hoodatavannella rangaagisi...banna hacchi..Avugalannu toydhu..Hucchu aasegalige banna hacchidhe..Aasey aa gidagalindha Onagi udiridha elegalu kooda aa Hani teredha kadha dindha bandha gaalige sikku madhuravadha sangeetha midisidhe..Hrudyadha aakashadalli aaseya honnanne hothu tandha Chandira moodi, alli chalisthiruvaa manjanthaha modagalannu iniya na sanihadalli nachikonda neereyanthe kempaagisi sundara golisidhaane..Aa modagalu naa mundhu thaa mundhu endhu aa chandira na belakalli bandhu sundara gondu..Idee Hrudayave hotthikonda kaadgicchanthaagi preethi hora hommutidhe...

Ee kaadgicchu ondhu mareechike yaagi uladhare adhe kshema..Ettha ee kadgicchu nanne suttu bidatho antha yochisuthaa..haage aa pratibimbadha madilalli malagiruvanthe bhaavisi..Nanna niddhe lokakke maralidhe...Belagaagi hakki galu chilipili maadi nanna ebbisuvaaga..suryana kirana bandhu kannige baidhaaga..Naa eddhu kulithu..Kenne na savaridaaga aascharyakke ondhu hani nijawaaglu nintidhe..Aa sundara kanassu nijawo embanthe bhaasavaagi...manollasadindha mundhe nadidhe...

Ninagaage kaayuthhiruva..Ninna preethiya...Shashanka..




Ending with these quotes:
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I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.

I understand with love comes pain, but why did I have to love so much?

There is one pain I often feel, which you will never know. It is caused by the absence of you.

Love,
Shashank

The Kaiser Castle.....

Hi,

These are nice isn't it...........

I Have Given My Heart Away
I have become yours in every way..
I Swear On You .... Its True

Let The World Protest
I Will Give All For You.... I Promise On You

Hopes Are From You Only My Love
I Have drawn this scar on my body..

I can never forget you.....
I shall live my life Under The Canopy Of Your Memories....

After God, or before that..I Will Worship Only You
Ask What You Want All Is Yours.......
because I Have Given My Heart Away to you.........



This Lifeless Heart Your Love Had Brought It Alive
And Then It Was Your Love, That Made It Distraught............
Pining, Pining, From The Tortured Heart Came Deep Sighs
I Am Punished For Falling In Love , What Crime Did I do???????????
Then,I Have Lost Everything .yes , Lost Everything for my Love for You..........


This Love Is A Strange Kind... Oh Dear Intimate......
Fleeting Moments Of Happiness ,
And Then Comes The Treasures Of Full Of Sorrows
You Get Aching Seclusion Of Tensions
In Tears , In Sighs , In Complaints, In the Wailful Hummings..
I see you...........

Your Face Appears Everywhere,in The Light Of Day Your thoughts Haunt Me
I get Your thoughts in The Darkness Of Night Too , I see you everywhere...


Rippling from this tortured heart comes The tormented Sighs...........
I Am Punished For Falling In Love , What Crime Did I do????????????
Then,I Have Lost Everything ( Been Looted) ,yes , Lost Everything For My Love For You


If I Meet God , I Will Ask Him, Oh 'God
Having Giving Me A Body Of Earth ( Clay) Why Did You Make My Heart Of Glass ?
And On Top Of That You Gave It The Tendency To Fall In Love,
(made Its Habit, So That It Falls In Love)!oh How Remarkable Are Your Nature!
How Glorious Your Handiwork, Oh Nature! And On Top Of That You Gave Fate , Sometimes
Meeting(encounters), Sometimes Separations ,
Sometimes Meeting, Sometimes Separations Is This What Is To 'love'? How Remarkable/glorious Are Your Nature!'


Whimpering Whimpering(with Quiet Sobs), From This Heart Come Sighs,I Have Been Punished For Falling In Love,
What Sin Have I Commited?,
Then,I Have Lost Everything ( Been Looted) ,yes , Lost Everything For My Love For You


Pining Pining, A Sigh Ripples From This Broken Heart,
I Have Received Punishment For Love, What Kinda Sin Have I Committed?
I Have Been Completely Looted, Yes Completely Looted, I Have Been Completely Looted In Your Love...........

With all that translation...............Shall start my blog today....

Shall explain my weekend funda.......Saturday woke up at 6 AM ...First of all, weekend is so long..On top of that...phew!!!!!!!! Was trying to kill time on the bed.....Thinking that this n all.......Some dreams...broken..Some dreams to be weaved.......Thoughts running from this corner of my mind to the other corner....Dont know how many times I would have turned sides..........One thought or imagination goes like this..Which is like a song.......

I am a wounded soldier... Have been wounded in the battle of love... I have been hit all over my body.. Except for the chest... Which I have protected with my two palms.. Holding onto my heart.... I am preserving it alone..because its where you dwell.. I am shot everywhere.... I am bleeding...I am trying to hide the stains... Wiping it out through my tears.......... My eyes have run dry... Its enough.. I am standing right in front of you.. I have nothing ..But for my heart .. which I have preserved from every pain.. I am right in front of you... You are the one to call the last shot.. If yes, it shall rip apart this heart and I shall fall at your feet... I shall leave this last few left tear drops at your feet...... Sighing ur name ..on the last few breathes.... If you give me a life....I shall surrender... I am already........ The wounds and the cuts would heal.. They would heal with your midas touch... I would smile once again..The pain shall vanish... I shall promise, I will make this life a happy song... I shall sing everynight for you.... We shall walk on the beaches holding our hands and We shall spend the nights looking at the endless dark blue sky......... Gazing at the stars...Spreading our dreams onto various constellations... Where I shall beg the mercy of the sky, to steal one of them and keeping with me....(you my star)..... Its upto you....You have the shot...


Good one isn't it?? The lines above are purely coincidental...and never resembles anyone..Its just the flow of words in my heart............

And with this thought, I woke up...and got ready to go for shopping....We all went to mediamarkt..Which is a big shopping mall...Something like Garuda mall..It was great...I saw few amazing shoes, jackets, shirts, t-shirts and all...I saw one superb jewellery set...WIsh I had a girl friend..I would have definitely gifted that to her.....Alas!! Now Saved money :) Hee hee :)......Saw so many things...And was also seeing what I can take home...to my sisters, parents and friends...Did not buy anything though...Have planned things now..Saw one amazing watch..but it was 450 Euros...Phew!!!!! Planning to give my dad a watch.....So made up my mind..Thought shopping shall be postponed....Hee hee :)...my legs were singing song..I was so tired...my legs were moving so involuntarily ....Then We all went to MarkTKauf, Bought vegetables, green peas, beans,..fruits...milk, joghurt etc...Came back dragging that heavy bag to room and was dragging the body too..Dont know whether bag was pulling bag or bag pulling my body..........Then We ate rice and yoghurt.....with a pickle...Slept off...Whole afternoon...phew!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Evening woke up ...Went for a walk to Sardarjis shop....To buy calling card..Unluckily..I did not get a card..Went around alone for 2-3 kms..Came back...After that was watching match between Manchester United and West Hamburg..it was an amazing match..With ManU winning 5-2...Loved it...
For night we thought we should cook Dal like the one they cook in Nandhini..I love that with ghee...So I had that color, taste everything in my mind..and kept dal for boiling...then onion, oil that this..khottha k hotttha.....now the suspense endds...The Dal was exactly the same as Nandhini one...We were so happy..We were so eager to eat it...I loved the Nights dinner..It was great..Dal, rice, lijjat papad, curd rice and one small pickle....Loved it..!!!! Kept little dhaal for morning as well...and was watching match between Barcelona and Manchester...Dont know when I dozed off....I needed a good sleep after so many days....

Sunday morning , woke up at aroung 8:30 AM....after a good nights sleep..I was fully charged and was feeling light...We had planned to visit SIddhivinayak temple here....We all went, but sadly It was in front of a graveyard and it was closed..The place was so deserted...We were scared to stay there...Myself and Nagaraju decided we shall go somewhere...We went to Kaiser Castle....Its a nice place...And here I need to mention one thing..There is one ring suspended
onto the churchs gate there..If we turn it one round luck shall come to us it seems...Being unlucky, I needed to grab luck as much as I can...So I thought of turning it whole day..But ...We went to that church and rotated the ring thrice..So I am triple lucky now...Lets see what fate has in its store for me...Then we climbed upto the Kaiser castle..With so many museums on our way..Each one charging 6 Euros to see some old things displayed there..Sad thing is its
all in German..And I was sure I would not understand a bit of it...So we did not go to any...Finally we reached the pinacle...The Kaiser Castle..The view from there and the Greenery around can make lovers romantic, birds sing and river roar.....Unlucky me....:(..So we went uphill..Saw different places in the Castle...It was an awesome experience...We roamed around till Noon..Again We were tired.....We took photos till the camera said I am exhausted.....It shall be uploaded and the link be given....We were like personal photographers to each other...Have taken my photo in every angle..So it should be easy for me to choose a photo to upload in matrimonial sites......Hee hee :)..Even Nagaraju did the same..I have taken his in every possible corner of the castle...So he would be discussing each stone there with his wife....

The link:
http://picasaweb.google.com/lh/sredir?uname=shashankatr&target=ALBUM&id=5329276133531151409&authkey=Gv1sRgCJ-Q6M-drq7ToQE&feat=email


We came back to room...Cooked amazing peas sambaar with garam masala....It was smelling great..We ate like hell....Slept off...

The sun is setting..and Sunday is about to bid bye....And I am just happy in my mind thinking I have to bid only maximum 4 Sundays bye...then I shall be home...So I am happy to send this Sunday to past........I am thinking to request my manager to send me a bit early...I have so much of pending work to do on my house loan............

With this I want to end this blog....Hope everyone is not bored of reading my huge blog.....I just like to narrate things...

Leaving you all with this thought...

What makes all Mother’s special –
When I came home drenched in the rain my brother said –
“Why don’t you take an umbrella with you !”

My sister said –
“Why didn’t you wait till the rain stopped !”

My father angrily said –
“You will only learn after getting a cold !”

But my mother while drying my hair said –
“Stupid rain !”

My love to her..............


I am just an actor. An actor that shall pretend with all earnestness at his command in the fake glory of accomplishment !!

The magic of life! And a confirmation that all acting eventually ends in its ultimate uselessness !!

May you be ever successful and happy..

May you be pure and responsive… and may you have the strength to dissolve fake accomplishment !! The whole world is fake.....

For this you have my prayers and my love -

Shashank.

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hi,

This song I love it like hell....

Tujhse Naaraaz nahin zindagi, hairaan hoon main
ohhhhhhhh hairaan hoon main
Tere masoom savalon se pareshaan hooN main
ohhhhhhhhhhhhh pareshaan hoon main

Jeene ke liye socha hi na tha, dard sambhalane honge
muskuraoon tho, muskurane ke karz utaarne honge
muskuraoon kabhi to lagta hai
jaise hontonn pe karz rakhaa hai
tujhse ..............

Aaj agar bhar aayi hain, boondein baras jaayengi.....
kal kya pata inke liye aakhen taras jayengi..
jaane kahan gum kahan khoya.....
ek aansu chhupake rakha tha
tujhse ...

zindagi tere gum ne hamain rishte naye samajhaye
mile jo hamain dhoop main mile chhaanv ke thande saaye
o tujhase ...

Tujhse Naaraaz nahin zindagi, hairaan hoon main
ohhhhhhhh hairaan hoon main.........

I love this song so so much........Like crazy...


Hmm I have lot to update isn't it?? After the silent saturday ..The Sunday....It was great..In the afternoon Had been to VolksFest and KongressHalle....KongressHalle was the former Nazi party Rally grounds...When I am there I could here the Hitlers voices echoing onto that incomplete walls and structures...Its huge and just like Rome colloseum....It was stopped midway after the death of Hitler...But its located in an amazing place ..just next to an artificially built lake..lake is huge........You can get more info on this If one is really interested and Nazy Party in this link
http://www.kubiss.de/kulturreferat/reichsparteitagsgelaende/englisch/dokuzentrum.htm
After that we had been to VolksFest, its a fair kind of thing....Giant wheels, turning wheels etc etc.....I still remember how we were fooled there..We went inside and as soon as we passed few shops..There was this one scary house.....I could not resist having the sweet memories of Wonderla..Which I loved...I decided i should try this..So me Pangi and Nagaraju went and sat in a pulling train..They charged 2.5 Euros per head....the train went up slowly...and all of a sudden we were taken into some cave kind of thing..Pitch dark.and few scary things hanging around and we just came out...That was neither scary nor exciting..Simply We wasted 7.5 Euros on a silly thing...Then We decided we shall not go to any such scary houses or whatever...After the Volks Fest..We came out..Spent some time on the lake side..Came back to room.....It was good...I loved the experience..Now I have this great wish of visiting the documentation center of Kongress Halle and really want to know the History of Nazis and Hitler..I am excited..I shall get to know and read the authentic things....Now I know whats NurnBerg famous for...............

One can see the snaps at this URL:
http://picasaweb.google.com/lh/sredir?uname=shashankatr&target=ALBUM&id=5327054492673637937&authkey=Gv1sRgCP2yqtvltc-QMA&feat=email


Then the Monday, tuesday and wednesday were so boring...Work work work...I have not done anything apart from that....Days are getting longer and longer...nights even more longer....phew!!! I need to spend 30 -40 days like this...Counting on man.....I just want to run away from here.....Though nothing exciting is waiting at Bangalore for me.....I know it will be boring there as well...But atleast i can eat whatever I want to.....I can go anywhere alone and freely...I can roam around in my Pulsar...I can buy things...I can do hell lot of things.....If nothing is possible then go and sit on the top of Gopalaswamy betta and enjoy nature.......

Life has been a roller-coaster for me in these past 5 days...I had written I should decide on something in my previous blog...Thats why I wanted to come to bangalore...But thats decided from here only.........Everything is remote now is n;t it...remote desktop..remote connection..now this is remote decision...So no excitement in coming to bangalore now....Here, uzbekisthan, china, japan, America..Iraq, Pakistan, or even to mars..I am ready to go now..........

People are enjoying holiday back home....Voting...Good...This time I had got voting card..got registered in Bangalore...I had registered in jaagore.com as well..I was so much enthu to vote...But I am here...Sad..

Keep reading...

Have fun...

Take Care.

Love,
Shashank

SIlent Saturday...

Hello,

This is just so wonderful isn't it....

Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long ...
Just trying to find my way back home...
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone

Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long...
Just trying to find my way back home ....
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone

I turn my head to the east I dont see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride.
That old me is dead and gone, but the new me will be alright
I turn my head to the east I dont see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride
That old me is dead and gone, but the new me will be alright

Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long...
Just trying to find my way back home...
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone and
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long...
Just trying to find my way back home...
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone, hey eh

That old me is dead and gone was being referred to me going onsite...This song I loved it..Its TI Feat Justin Timberlake.....So my weekends playlist is/was

1. T.I. Feat Justin Timberlake - above song....Dead and gone..
2. Zara Zara from RHTDM
3. Tere Naina from Chandni Chowk to China..
4. kahin dhoor jab dhin dhal jaaye..Saanj si dulhan..badan churaaye..
5. kaise mujhe from Ghajini.
6. Na Tum jaano na hum from Kaho na pyaar hain.
7. All Amrithavarshini songs..
8. Show me the meaning of being lonely - Back Street boys..
9. Tanhayee from Dil Chahta hain - Love this song..
10. MLTR - When the blue sky is over my face....on the dark side of the world in space..
11. Jeevan ki bhagiya mehkegi...

This song by MLTR has captivated me in its own way...I just love it...I dont know why?? The lyrics goes like this:

Lately you have been asking me
if all my words are true
Don't you know I'll do anything for you

Sometimes I haven't been good to you
Sometimes I've made you cry
And I am sorry for everything

but I promise you girl
I promise you this

When the blue night is over my face
on the dark side of the world in space
When I'm all alone with the stars above
you are the one I love

So there's no need to worry girl
My heart is sealed for you
And no one's gonna take it away

cos' I promise you girl
I promise you this

When the blue night is over my face
on the dark side of the world in space
When I'm all alone with the stars above
you are the one I love

Your voice is calling to me in my dreams
My love is stronger than it's ever been

Awesome isn't it..I love it word by word.....And this song is so special to me in my life because it was dedicated to me by someone( Name will not be disclosed) on a national television called MTV which was playing User requested songs....I dont remember the programs name now..yeah but it was dedicated to me..And I was totally flat after watching this song dedicated to me.....hee hee :)...But now the person is not there in my life..But this song is etched onto my hearts and still my heart cries out when this song is played....

With all these emotional drama...I shall tell my weekend Funda...Saturday weather was so boring..I mean it was raining and chilling....So my idea of going cycling was a disaster....Dropped that idea..and went to MarktHauf....its like Big Bazaar...Shopped things to eat...and bought vegetables, fruits and all...Came back to room...Cooked beetroot pallya....It took long time to cook completely..But It was superb after cooking ..Taste was just as I anticipated...I wished I had chapathi with that to eat....But I love it with yogurt and rice as well..So ate it with complete satisfaction..Saturdays lunch was good.....

Evening ate so many things..Had bought honey so ate one spoon of honey...Fruits and soya milk....And was just lazing at home...Watching Semi-final between Arsenal and Chelsea...It was pakka European isn't it?? It was so good to spend time like that.....Waiting for that match between Man United and Everton tomorrow..Second semi-final...No phone calls to my friends or there was no much chatting or anything....It was just boring....Evening went to Sardarjis shop to buy calling card..At this point I should give description about this Sardarji..He is an Indian..He does not booze..He is settled here since ages..He goes for cross country run..He goes to gym daily..He is from Punjab....he sells Pakisthaani items...Rice, wheat, spices everything from Pakisthan...Hee hee :)...The rice which I use is Laila Rice from Peshawar...:)...100 Grams of green chilly costs 1 Euros...Its the only place where we get all these things...Like Toor Dal, Greeen chilly, ladies finger...etc...I went all alone with music playing on my N73M.....It was very good..Very refreshing...Drizzling rain..Songs..It made my heart heavy...I was feeling my heart is absorbing all the rain drops like a sponge or something...Suddenly It was heavy...And the song that was being played was Mungaaru maleye....hee hee :).....We might change the place and go far..But the rain is still the same and the thoughts....Because u cant just change this heart no...So ella mix aagi...Ee male...Nenapugalu...Aa nim maathugalu...thumba novu aythu kanree ....(Comedy time Ganeshannana style alli).....Especially this line..Bhuvi edhe thumba mugilu suridha mutthina guruthu..Nanna edhe thumbaaa avalu bandha hejjeya guruthu..hejje gejje ya savi saddhu ..Prema naadhavo...Edhe mugilanalli rangu chelli ninthalu avalu..Baredhu hesaraa kamaana billu ..yeno modiyo.......God :( :(.....how can one be happy after listening to this lyrics....With all these, some thoughts in my mind came...Am not able to arrange..but simply have collected it here..

Ee bhoomi yaako albeku antha heege manassella bhaara maadikondu koothidhyeno antha....Adhara bhaavanegalu heppu gatti ee karimodagalagi...Adhu ekanthaadhalli irabeku embanthe ee janarannu manege atti....adondhe ee nibidadalli...yeno kulithu yochane maadidhanthe....Ello yeno novadanthe....Allomme illomme huccheddhu nakkanthe...ee sidilu..ee gudugu....

Kaarmoda male haniyaagi suridhaaga..Kanna hanige mukhti...maradha hakke mari rekke beesedhare..adhara garige mukthi..Edheya novu haadagi(sidulu gudugaagi) hommidhare..Bhaavakke bandha mukthi...Endhu aadhenu naanu muktha....Yeru nadhige edhuraagi eeji dada serbahudhde jeeva...Daati ee pravaaha...Thaanu bendhu tili belakaaa needutidhe..ondhu irula deepaaaaaaa.....Antheye nanna preethi bendhu nanna edheyolage belagidhe preethi deepa....Mogginindha sere odedha gandha hoovindha dhoora dhoora....Elluntu adake aache theera...Ninnindha dhooradha naanu haage....Nangu ellu teerave illa.....Ee novige koneyu illa...

Ok Ok It was just my imagination....

Came back to room.....And I had absolutely no mood to cook anything...So was just thinking what to do...Then I found out that Nagaraju has Chutney powder....Cooked hot rice and ate that with chutney powder and pickles..It was good...basic idea is to push some rice inside stomach....Eat to live concept....Hmmmmmmm...After that, was playing games....and slept off at 11:30 PM...

Hmm it was a silent saturday..And even this day will be kept in the bore part of my lifes wardrobe.....


I have loved to the point of madness; Ha really....
That which is called madness,
That which to me,
Is the only sensible way to love

Ending this blog with this thought.....................

Miss you all..

Love,
Shashank

After a long time..................

Hello,

It was so boring to come to office after 4 days of heavy sleep and my body was just unwilling to accept anything. So I came off pulling it..Dragging it on the road to office on Tuesday..slouchy!!! the day after Easter...It was boring even to come to office....though nothing was exciting at hotel room.......

Have got hell lot of work..So I am keeping myself occupied here...Discussions, implementation etc etc. ..Work is in full zoom....the angry abdullah I have been talking about in my room....He smiled and talked for the first time..I was convinced that I can make even stone to talk..Hee hee :) He was telling weekend was great...In Germany we never get 4 continuous sunny days...He enjoyed vacation very much....He was cracking few jokes...Unbelievably I was like..Is it he????..I was forcibly laughing....It was Nagarajus first day at office...he was looking a bit nervous...new environment....I have observed one thing strange about the Europeans...They take one month to see someone and analyse them..Once their brain says ok..Then only they shall talk to you ..Else it starts with Good morgen and ends with baay in the evening!!...In India, the moment we see somebody, within half an hour the new person would be knowing our lovers name also.....So when we receive a call and try to move away from him..He will signal in his/her eyes..oh!! That call...hmmm hmmm....ok ok..So we are completely opposite in that sense...We need 30 mins..the same thing they do in 30 days...Each has its pros and cons...though!

Days are busy...Work work and work...No time for anything..From morning 8:45 to evening 7:15..Hardly a luch break of 20 mins...Thats it..i was just thinking my life in Bangalore...Lunch means minimum one hour...or more than that....Lunch..after that a walk around ITPL...It was fun...here I dont see anything apart from code and these diagrams...Bad bad bad...I feel my creativity is being burnt....And evenings, I shall go to room and cook for myself and Nagaraj...Eat and sleep off..So life is so routine now....from one way its good...

Suddenly I get this thought from no where........I feel AmrithaVarshini's music is the best of our era....I still believe the music and lyrics was at par compared to Mungaru male....I still believe that is the best music of Mano Murthy and kannada industry....Till date I am hearing it...and will be hearing it in future...Its a master piece...I have not listened to any song of Mungaru Male recently...But daily night I shall play the music of amruthavarshini and sleep off...The melody in it and the soothness shall rest my wandering soul...Its the first movie in which I have seen a lyricist potraying a lady praising her man...

" Gaganadha suryaa mane mele.....
Nee nanna Suryaa hane mele...
Thaayi tandhe ella neene..
yaake bere nantu..
saaku ella sirigala meero ..
Ninna preethi gantu...
jagakkella maadhari
ee preethiyu.........

and so on...
Tunthuru..""""

And I think and feel, lyrics of Inthi ninna preethiya ( music by Sadhu kokila) is the best one in recent times..After Amritha Varshini....yeah!! I love it for the richness in saahithya...Its ultimate!! One line sample

" Ee mogganna hoo aagiso baaro..Naanaaguvenu ninna olavina theru...

ondhondhe bacchittta maathu..Ondhondhaagi kooditta kavana..."

Yeah Even Gaalipata was fair enough.........

May 31st return ticket is booked..I hope thats final..i want to come back..Not that I am bored of Europe or homesick..but this one time I want to come back..I have one important decision to make when I come back...Once thats over..I can go even to Mars....Funny thing is june 1st is my birthday..I shall reach bangalore exactly on my Birthday...crazzy!!! But I would be happy to be there...To be with my friends..

This weekend planning to go to Erlangen cycling....Its 35-40 Kms from NurnBerg...its just like Gnanabharathi University..and a small town attached to NurnBerg....Cycling should give me much needed exercise...Lets see how it goes..

Had ocoked amazing cauliFlower sambaar..it was good...ultimate...!! So 2 days..day night that sambaar and rice...hee hee :)...

I have this great wish to learn a guitar...That one wish I want fulfill..I dream often like Hritik in Kaho na pyar hain first scene...:) :) ..I want to sing my own song one day with my own lyrics..Which I have already written....Not for the public..Its private and personal...And the words tuned into music only for that special someone..who is yet to come...Whom I have not seen until now....

Days were so sunny...and light was so intruding......Suddenly since yesterday it has become cloudy..its drizzling....cold...Weather has changed all of a sudden....Its like ooty now...temperature recorded 9 degrees....I love this temperature.....It should be like this always...I feel..And in the morning like a peacock dances for the first monsoon rain..i was feeling like dancing as well...That too listening to Lady Gaga's Poker Face on MTV...Beats are superb in that...Hmmmmm :)...All of a sudden mood changed....Fresh air...Good one ...

Today morning on my way to office when it was drizzling..Cold droplets of water dripping through my body...Then I remembered gosh I have not updated my blog...its been a long time..So taking time out of my busy schedule to write this....

We had cooked tamarind huli gojju...It was awesome....And today for lunch its egg fried rice.......Planning to cook onion pakoda and aloo pakoda this weekend....If the weather remains the same..........I love eating pakodas on a rainy day and chilling weather....In life there are so many good things to do apart from loving isn't it?? but we spend most of our time loving.....Thats the crazy definition of life.....

Ok guys...Miss you all..

Signing off...With this ultimate song

Yeh Tumhari Meri Baathein, Hamesha Yuhin... Chalti Rahe..
Yeh Hamari Mulakate, Hamesha Yuhin... Chalti Rahe..
Beete Yuhin Apne Saare Din Raaat
Baaton Se Nikalti Rahe Nayi Baaat
Phir Wahin Baathein Leke Geet Koi... Hum Likhe..
Jo Dil Ko Haan Sab Ke Dil Ko.. Chu Le..
Baathein Suron Mein Yuhin Pighalti Rahen..
Baathein Geeton Mein Yuhin Dalti Rahen..

Geeton Mein Haan Humko.. Khusiyon Se Haan Saja De
Jo Sune Gaaye Woh Hum Se Gaaoon Na

Yeh Tumhari Meri Baathein, Hamesha Yuhin... Chalti Rahe..
Yeh Hamari Mulakate, Hamesha Yuhin... Chalti Rahe..
Beete Yuhin Apne Saare Din Raaat
Baaton Se Nikalti Rahe Nayi Baaat
Phir Wahin Baathein Leke Geet Koi... Hum Likhe..
Jo Dil Ko Haan Sab Ke Dil Ko.. Chu Le..
Baathein Suron Mein Yuhin Pighalti Rahen..
Baathein Geeton Mein Yuhin Dalti Rahen..


Take care.

Love,
Shashank

Easter Weekend Package

Hello....................................

I have successfully completed 4 days guys....Now I know 4 days is 96 hours only....I have watched these 96 hours very carefully and come to a conclusion...blah blah!! No conclusion..Because I could not conclude on anything....These 96 hours were boring... Filled with excitement here and there just like sudden showers in the summer....It was spent between four walls most of the time though......

Saturday I have not done anything special..Literally!! Anything.....It was so boring...Saturday evening Brajesh me n Pangi went to Lawrence Kirche ( U people might have by-hearted this by now or again should I start explaning things like it is a place like commercial street in NurnBerg..Dann!!!)...We went to Vodafone shop to enquire about the Wireless LAN adapter...trying to get internet somehow in this hotel..Internet connection what these hotel guys charge is too much..Its 149 Euros Per month..phew!!! So we were thinking of some alternative.....But I dont know whether i would really go for that now...Even that seems so confusing and costly....Then we came back to hotel room....Saturday was wrapped up neatly and kept in the bore part of my life's wardrobe...One of my colleague/friend Nagaraju was leaving India to here on the same night..Was just thinking he might have left Bangalore..He will be coming tomorrow here..And dozed off again....

Sunday...tick tick tick!! Time for Nagaraju to land in NurnBerg..........Why I was so excited about his landing?? There are three reasons: one is he had my new camera with him...Whole night I was getting dreams of that click sound...click!! Click!! And second reason being, there might be some change in life....na..Like his interest and mine are the same...Seeing places...And third reason being, he had told me before only we shall cook together..So partner for cooking is the best thing to happen..When u have someone to assess your work then only one shall deliver the best...hee hee :) With these thoughts, I was cutting aloo and onion and all....To make the same aloo sambaar...His arrival time was 2:15 PM. ...Food was ready and neatly arranged on table..Plates and all..I thought I should have food with him only....Waited ..waited..waited...with the aloo sambar getting cold(The tastier yellow color sambaar turning to brownish) and even the rice in the oven....

2:30 PM...trin!! Trin! Trin!! Nagaraju is here....yay :) ...With his usual smile he came off to my room....He was hungry like an ass( bad comparison)..hee hee ..:)..we both sat on the table and ate aloo sambaar with rice...And rice with joghurt(curd/yogurt)....He was happy...finally..Though I could see his facial expression while eating that sambaar..He was not at all satisfied...Might be he was missing the superb taste of his home sambaar or something....he had not come to reality yet..

He had bought camera for me...God..I was damn so excited......Really guys...By the way its my first camera...my own...hee hee :)..She is Sony DSC W230.....she has the capacity of 12.1 Million pixels and can make men shy with her 4x optical zoom....she can recognize faces...she can recognize people smile....She can make things clear with her anti-blurring technology....So you can shake her up....But hello she is mine...all mine..Hu aha ha ha!!....I was seeing how can i handle her...WIth her silver body...with silver streaks on them..She was shining...She was waiting to get embraced and get clicked....So i thought I should click it now...Click click..!! My photo was the first one to be clicked ....hee hee :) She was happy and full smiling....:).....

Then again I slept off.....Evening I woke up...Thought of taking Nagaraju out ...Me Pangi and Nagaraju went off to Lawrence Kirche again(why again to this place???????????? sad)...............we took few photos....Came back.....Sad part is again Nagaraju was given the same aloo sambaar and rice..hee hee :) I am helpless....I wanted that aloo thing to get over...Again night I dozed off!!!...

Monday..It was holiday for us here....Yay:)..It was an eventful day..In the sense finally the dream of going somewhere started off by going to a local zoo here....They said its in a sprawling 350 acres...amazing zoo and all....Nagaraju had come to my room for morning breakfast...He could not buy anything here..Because everything is closed here..SO he has to depend on me for anything now...paapa guy...We cooked uppit(MTR) with our own added things like onion and oggarane....It wasa so tasty..Yummy.....We ate that with pickles...it was superb...After this, We went to Hauptbhanhof with our cameras loaded..and from there took a bus(5) to tiergarten(Zoo)....It was a bit long journey.....Finally we were at the entrance of the zoo...saw hundreds of people in queue for tickets....We also stood in queue and bought tickets...Its 8.5 Euros...sad :( and went inside seeing things...Giraffe...Ostrich..Camel...Tiger..Lion..Cheetah....birds...owl(goobe)....Polar bear....Penguin...stop stop...now the most exciting part..the dolphin show...yay:) We went inside the building where there was a large water pool....The etrance fee was 4 Euros for this show exclusively..We were all excited...And I was ready with my camera fully loaded...ready to click the action....They were showing some documentary as to how dolphins and other sea animals are being killed...After 10 mins...The excitement started..I saw one black creature crawling with a girl..it was a seal........Three seals amazingly performed in front of us....they were being instructed by a beautiful girl...Who almost looked like a seal in her tight fit black swimming costumes....After that..Dolphins show..Where 4 dolphins were made to dance..and perform stunts....Somehow was not so happy....I felt they were only torturing them after showing an educative video....How they were performing stunts was..After each round they would feed them fish and signal the dolphins with some whistle....What these Dolphins know is, If I perform what she is signalling me now..Once I come back she will feed me fish...So it was doing all the stunts...Similar to our project managers guys..Hee hee :)......Project manager shall show an engineer some fish....We guys perform at that water pool and get few fishes..Whereas If we were there in sea ourselves we could have had enough fishes...In Thousands...But I felt very bad and pity for them....They are so innocent...Innocent things were being exploited haah,,,,they will be always.,,,,.....I heard people clapping with excitement...Nothing was this was a matter to that Dolphin....Whats on its mind was only fish....I could see and feel, Europeans give so much importance to their family...Really!!! They spend so much time with them .....give so much care...And Its very bad to be a husband in Europe guys...God..all the snacks..to wife ...to trolley..to kid..to educating kid on these animals..to cleaning the kid ...to....He has to perform....God!! Its not so tough for a guy in India....I felt like that....I have never seen a parent beating up his/her kid....they have to be nice always....I just dont know whether they are the coolest people are on Earth or we are the least temparamental guys...But the value they give to their family..I just love it..There is so much bond in it...

By then our fuse was out walking Kms....We had not carried any food to eat...All people were carrying fruits...burgers and all...The smell was killing me and more acid being released onto my digestive system...And buying there would be a costly affair..after this everything was in a fast forward phase.....We were searching for Ausgang(exit) and came out of that as fast as we could......That was about zoo....Shall upload the snaps...and give the link here....zuyyyyyyyyyyy!!

Came back to room.....Cooked rice and Nagaraju had some amazing chitranna gojju given by his mother packed.....It was so so tasty...God after so many days it was so good...it was like heaven..So we ate much rice with little little gojju..Preserving good things for future...hee hee :)...And I had some 250 grams of ice cream(Cappucino flavor)...We had one scoop each....Slept off..

Its evening 6:30 and I am writing this blog...Nothing much would happen after this...I know that..Shall cook something to eat...Eat it and sleep off!! Good I have got a company to cook now...Lets see If now atleast i put on some weight...Had an idea of joining some gym here...Enquired..Any good gym would cost me 60 Euros and timing is the biggest problem ..its 9 AM to 12 PM...who the hell can go in this time..They should have it at 6 AM....So I might not join gym....Sad...Wanted to get down like Shahid from airport....But its all written ...fate to be thin...Hair has grown long..Even that needs to be cut.....Its 15 Euros...hee hee :) But I have to get the hair cut....

Missing Bangalore like hell....have marked the number of days here on my boook..I shall strike off each day...I feel so happy..I am only some 45 days away from Bangalore....Want to go to GopalaSwamy Betta in Mysore once i come back and sit there without talking to anyone....Thats the only place where my imagination can be spread wide......It shall give peace....Its just so serene...Calm....I love that place....Its an awesome place..For all the people who have not seen it..Please do see it...Its in our own Mysore...Not in summer...Might be after the first rain...


Missing you all...

Take care guys..

All around the world
Someone needs somebody
Let it be a shield

All around the world
Someone's feeling lonely
But I know you never will

Cause when it all gets too much
Put your head down on my shoulder
A little warmth when it gets colder
Now I don't know the things that you're going through
But you can put your head down
On my shoulder
Wear the storm 'til it blows over
I know you're there for me too
No I'll be there for you

You're waiting for a change
You're waiting for the day
When all that you remember is with you once again
There's a long road ahead
Stretches out for miles
And if you want some company
Walk with me a while
Oh and when the road gets too rough

You can put your head down on my shoulder
A little warmth when it gets colder
I don't know the things that you're going through
But you can put your head down
On my shoulder
Wear the storm 'til it blows over
I know you're there for me too
So I'll be there for you...............


Love,
Shashank

Halo,

It was a frying friday...It was such a boring day no....God..!!! And till now I have not understood..what I should call this place..Some people spell it as NurnBerg..Some Nuremberg....Hmmm!! With this confusion.....and so many thoughts running in my mind....Writing this blog....

Morning was chatting with my friends as many of my friends were online..Most of the offices were working in India....hmmmmmm....Guys, I have installed hell lot of games in this laptop...Playing them one after other...Totally got sucked in playing games.....Started off from Maxpayne to cueball to tanks to super Mario....phew~!!!! Afternoon my eyes were strained...and of all the games I loe Maxpayne alot... this is the third time I am playing it...Can you believe it.?? Might be it has some emotional touch to it...Its about a cop, whose wife and kid will be killed by gangsters.....and how that cop goes on taking revenge...It is awesome...So full fireworks guys...Changing the gun..ammo..jumping..shooting..It was full of action....So friday was filled with lot of action....Virtually!!!

Was just thinking how dumb I am ..If I had planned a bit earlier I could have gone to Paris. Have few friends there. I could have seen Paris atleast and come...But going alone till there in the train is a boring thing isn;t it?? So decided it good from one side...And one more thought seriously I need to buy sunglasses...God they say the rays here are some oblique or something..it contains more UV..I dont know the scientific reason but yes I am witnessing it. My eyes will have some burning sensation..Once I go out in Sunlight............

One thought which came to my mind...

" Orataadha aa maradha dhimmi indha chigurodedhu hasiru bandhidhe....Kallugala melu garikeyaa chiguru odedidhe....gattiyaadha ee bhoomi indha...neerodedhu..Chilume yaagi..chimmidhe...Neenobbalu hennu..bhari manujalu..Ninnadhu maamsa tumbidha myi..Ninnolage nanna preethi chigurodayalillave....gattiyaadha ninna manassindha nanna preethi kambanigalu chimmalillave....Aaseygala garikegalu chiguralillave...."

hmmmmmm.....

With this...It was a super duper dinner..Doner Kebap + rice and curd + deserts + juice .....Hee hee :) All at home...WIth TV..Just imagine...I enjoyed food to its bit....Dont know after so many days I was feeling I am eating curd rice which is mixed by my mother..When I was young I always used to get curd rice mixed by somebody else...like mother..my grandmother..Taste is totally different when they mix...Dont know they might have added their love to it...Till date I love if somebody feeds me food with their hand..Have I not grown up?? or...?? I dont know...So a girl who marries me will be having a tough time..haah :(.......hmmmmm...

The apartments in front of my room are totally empty...They all have gone for summer vacation..But all at the same time..hmmmmmmmmmm :(....So night it will be completely dark out there......Missing out some familiar faces...But I feel happy for them..They are having a blast with their family..

The garden restaurant is turning out to be Nandhini of Bangalore...I am comparing only in the sense of madness rush out there in Nandhini...saturday, Sunday we can get appointment in Narayana Hrudayalaaya But not a seat in Nandhini...Crazzy guys we all are...We come at 1:30...Wait till 3:15 for Lunch...Take unlimited meals...By then out hunger would have died..Upon that he would have added baking soda...eat 10 rs ka mini meals and pay 80 Rs and go home...With a smile on face and gas in belly....hee hee :)...All because of we IT people....I am not against spending a good time with spouse on a weekend...But not there...In that mad rush like majestic....It should be calm...where one can see others face...fall in love with her/him again and again...I feel a place should be like that....Else cooking at home and eating while watching a movie on TV....That will be more beautiful....I know any girl reading this would hate this ........

With this..In the evening we went for Furth..Furth is in the outskirts of NurnBerg....It has a huge huge park..We went there...one round we took..It was like walking from J P nagar to Basavanagudi..Legs were paining like hell... It was then I decided to have some heavy dinner..So took doner Kebap...And I was just thinking if the same park was in Bangalore...There was big stream in the mid of park...It was so clean..so peaceful..So serene...I was just thinking...how poeple in India would have eaten hell lot of things there..Spread plastic like mad dogs....washed their hands in that stream...Some people would have even brought biryani(I have seen it in lalbagh guys)..........India cannot be changed..Atleast in these things we should change.;......

Will keep updating my thoughts here guys..Keep reading...

Have a blast!!!! Enjoy each moment..Enjoy each day....For all those who are in love..Spend quality time with your spouses....Have a great time....For time is a valuable thing...Have great respect for it.......


Missing Bengaluru.........Missing all the updated on bollywood movies and gossips on zoom and kannada songs on U2.........And obvisously Raodies, Splitsvilla and all on MTV...

Because of we crazy guys , MTV has been awarded the maximum TRP...Budda buddi everyone is behind MTV now...hee hee :).....Prgrams like Youngisthaan and all which are meant for young people will be telecast at the time when no youngy will be there at home....so budda buddis are watching it...

Todays Menu:
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1. No breakfast
2. Lunch - swalpa rice + kaalu pallya
3. Dinner - Doner Kebap + rice + curds + desert ( chocolate icecream)...

Missing you all guys.........

Love,
Shashank

Happy easter....lot to read guys...

hello...

This is Razor light's new album..Wire-to-wire....Just love this song....How this is picturised no....he starts with a match stick flame and he ignites another match stick once that gets fully burnt.....The whole song is shot like this...In the light of a match stick...Too good innovative idea isn't it?? Great!!!!! This is an apt lyrics for someone........................

Lyrics goes like this:
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What is love but the strangest of feelings?
A sin you swallow for the rest of your life?
You've been looking for someone to believe in
To love you, until your eyes run dry

She lives on disillusion road
We go where the wild blood flows
On our bodies we share the same scar
Love me, wherever you are

How do you love with a fate full of rust?
How do you turn what the savage take?
You've been looking for someone you can trust
To love you, again and again

How do you love in a house without feelings?
How do you turn what that savage take?
I've been looking for someone to believe in
Love me, again and again

She lives by disillusions glow
We go where the wild blood flows
On our bodies, we share the same scar

How do you love on a night without feelings?
She says "love, I hear sound, I see fury"
She says "love's not a hostile condition"
Love me, wherever you are

Love me, wherever you are
Love me, wherever you are
Wherever you are
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Great song isn't it?? Loved it .....

This is just an article which I got..Serious research done ....Why men are never sad:

Men Are Just Happier People-- What do you expect from such simple creatures? Your last name stays put. The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car mechanics tell you the truth. The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky. You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt. Same
work, more pay. Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress $5000. Tux rental-$100. People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them. New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet. One mood all the time.

Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat. You know stuff about tanks. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase. You can open all your own jars. You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness. If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.

Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-pack. Three pairs of shoes are more than enough. You almost never have strap problems in public. You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes. Everything on your face stays its original color. The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades. You only have to shave your face and neck.

You can play with toys all your life. One wallet and one pair of shoes -- one color for all seasons. You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look. You can 'do' your nails with a pocket knife. You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes.

No wonder men are happier.

Yes we men are happier!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hee heee :) I was laughing on the floor after reading this.................

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Now I would explain what is meant by a woman with an example...

A wife was making a breakfast of fried eggs for her husband. Suddenly
her husband burst into the kitchen.
"Careful ... CAREFUL! Put in some more butter! Oh my GOD! You're cooking
too many at once. TOO MANY! Turn them! TURN THEM NOW! We need more
butter. Oh my GOD! WHERE are we going to get MORE BUTTER? They're going
to STICK! Careful ... CAREFUL! I said be CAREFUL! You NEVER listen to me
when you're cooking!
Never! Turn them! Hurry up! Are you CRAZY? Have you LOST your mind?
Don't forget to salt them. You know you always forget to salt them. Use
the salt. USE THE SALT! THE SALT!"
The wife stared at him. "What in the world is wrong with you? You think
I don't know how to fry a couple of eggs?"
The husband calmly replied, "I wanted to show you what it feels like
when I'm driving." !!!!

Woman gets tensed for simple things on this planet, makes it complex and solves very complex problem easily...So if u can understand this statement...Then u have understood a girl..COngatulations...!!!!
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Finally buying a camera guys....Its Sony W230....Hmmm!!! Now I should be able to click some snaps and like every onsite guy does..Even I shall take photos of grass, hills, trees, snow, statues, and all....Upload it in orkut or picasa...If interested you can always see my album...I shall update it....

Things are going to be boring.....4 days...but I shall make it exciting somehow..Planning to go to the outskirts of the town...cycling...Planning to go to Furth Harhohe....NuremBerg Zoo.....and all...Lets see..........

And I have decided..If I dont get any company..I shall go to Swiss alone atleast and come back..Just imagine..Its a dream from the year 1995...When Kajol comes and catches that train in DDLJ....I always wanted to travel in such train once..Thats fulfilled..Infact saturated.Daily I commute on such trains....Now swiss...and take a photo in SRKs pose.....Thats it...My wish will be fulfilled.....!!! So will be aming for it and Salsburg in Austria..Wow man....I should go for it once...Lets see....In this two months what I will do....

Today for one hour I was just sitting in my balcony....and watching moon...Its a full moon...It seems so lonely....Since the Earth has embraced Sun ( long daylight time)..It seems upset...because it can be with earth only for a short duration. ...Might be for the same reason...It just wants to show the amount of love it has for Earth...In this short duration....its shining so brightly....and moving so swiftly....Dont know what hurry is it in....it moved the entire horizon in just few mins.....crazzy thing!!!

With this I am writing my creation....:

" Earth and Moon are relatively close whem measured in units of light years..Aadhre ee moon ge adhu tumba doora anstha idhe..Adhu aa bhoomiya saniha ne baystha irathe idee jeevana..Aadhre chandira bhoomi ya hathraa barakke agatha ..Illa..Yendighu illa.Yaake gotha if Moon comes near Earth ashte pralaya aagi hogathe..Bhoomi li barbara alegaleddhu allola kallola aagi hogathe..Adakke ee olava chandamaama adhra bhavanegalanna belandingalaagi aa bhoomi mele dhoordindha ne chelli..Adharalle kushi padthaaaaa...Aa tampina hotthalli adhara aasegalu ibbani hanigalaagi soki bhoomi li seri hogathe...Hallinantha modagalu bhoomi ya manadangaladallella odaadtha, bhoomi ge kachuguli idathe....Samudradha alegalaagi bandhu bhommi na badidhu badidhu helathe , nodu naanu ninna ishtu preethi maadthini antha..Bhoomi adhannu arthaane maadkoladhe munjaaneya sooryange kaadhu kulitandidhe.....aa bhoomige idhanna helvaru yaaru...Sooryana belakindhaane aa bhoomi li hasiru haradadhu...hoovu araladhu....Jeeva naliyuvudhu...aadhre idhannu aa chandranige yaaru heladhu....Intha hucchu preemi ee chendiraa...."

And also wrote this, Although no recipient is there ....Just writing it here........


" Tandhe taayi ibbara preethi kottu, beledingala berisi ootavinnittu.....
kannnugala maathalle Laali ya haadi...Nanna yedheya goodalli bandhisi saavigu hedaradhe edhe koduve..
Nee kannu mucchi kulithare ninna kannaagiruve naanu..
NInna kanasallu kaavaliruve..Nanna dukha nungi..Ninna naguvaagi hommi baruve gelethi..
Nanna kannugalalli ninna kanassanu tumbi kondu..avugalannu saakara golisi..
Ninna Haneya chumbisi..Nannela preethiyanittu...
Nangene kashta bandharu nanna kanninna kannadiyannu kanniru daatadanthe..
Ninna naguvalle naguvaagi..preetisuve ninna nanna maguvaagi.."



Sorry guys nanna manasse sari illa......Illa andhrfe had written pages of kavanas...............Yaaro ello yeno novu.......

Todays menu:
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Tindige bread...ootakke bread....Raathri ge bread.....Bread ge Jai ho!!!


Devaru nimmellarigu olledh maadli...nagutha nagutha nali nali yene aagali....

No one is here guys..The apartments in front of my rooms are all empty...Everyone is on a vacation...Great..............


Missing Bangalore a lot!!!!............


Wünsche allen frohe Ostern ...Happy easter....

Love,
Shashank

This is my last resort..Suffocation..No breathing.

Updating my blog after a long long time..Was not interested in updating ...But someone forced me to do so..So writing again guys...If u were really missing it..I was astonished by the fact that my blog has become super famous...Though not so much really...But I found it so strange when one of my chat friend asked me..Is this blog yours...Its so good...It touched me..Inspired me to write it again...

For all the people who wants to know why I did not write the blog: this song from Papa Roacha would aptly answer that question....I am listening to this song nowadays

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding

This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces
Ive reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And Im contemplating suicide

Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine

I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils

Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me in fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Nothings alright
Nothing is fine
Im running and Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
Im crying

I cant go on living this way

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And Im contemplating suicide

Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Nothings alright
Nothing is fine
Im running and Im crying

I cant go on living this way
Cant go on
Living this way
Nothings alright

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Ok with all that.....I am so terrified about spending 4 days here. Its a long ...Very looooooooooooong weekend...GOsh!!! How I wish I was in Bangalore....If I was in Shimoga....Spending time with family......Missing all those moments......:(
With these thoughts heavy in my heart like a dark cloud. Missing my friends so terribly....We would have gone definitely on some long trip...Chey!! This was the right time....Hmmmm:( Miss them a lot......

SOrry not able to write much!!!!!........I am not in a state to write things...............

Love,
Shashank

Its never late...........

Let me start my blog with this song In English..This song is by Nickel Back...Full deewana of this one..Its about a dad taking care of her lone girl child...Its ultimatum..Loved it...The lyrics goes like this

I will come for you
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Just one more moment
That's all that's needed
Like wounded soldiers
In need of feeling

Time to be honest
This time I'm pleading
Please don't dwell on it
'Cause I didn't mean it

I can't believe I said
I'd lay my love on the ground
But it doesn't matter
'Cause I made it up
Forgive me now

Everyday I spent away
My soul's inside out
Gotta be someway
That I can make it up
To you now some how

By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to

I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you

I was blindfolded
But now I'm seeing
My mind was closing
Now I'm believing

I finally know just
What it means
To let some one in
To see the side of me
That no one does or ever will

So if you're ever lost and
Find yourself all alone
I'd search forever
Just to bring you home
Here and now, it's a vow

By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to

I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
You know I'd always come for you

No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you

Yes, I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to

And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'll always come for you

No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you

I'd crawl across this world for you
Do anything you want me to
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you
You know I'll always come for you.............

With this song..I loved these songs as well and love to hear them again and again..Silbermond ( the video is superb where she explains the war field or some protest..Everything paused...She singing..It reminds me of Dil se..)..Pink(Please dont go..where she hits ..wounds her boy friend pleading him not to go..Though its very disturbing..Its one part of love..So violent yet cool).....I was a fan of Pink for her early Song as well( I am coming..So get this party started)..GeWinner ( I could not understand a single word in it..Its German...But song is too good....Sung underwater....Loved it)......With all these songs in my belly err head..err somwehere.......Writing this blog..

I have a better idea for the pink chaddi andholan guys in India...arrange for tickets for Muthalik and send him on a Europe tour in the summer...May be in the month of May..Next year he shall only arrange for Valentines day and give paanaka(Lemonaid)...for the couples....hee hee :)..He can as well give pink chaddis...he has never seen world.....Desha nu nodilla..Kosha nu odhilla...he is a Yemme :)

Right in front of my window..I could see Families getting ready to embrace the spring..They are cleaning their bikes..cycles....Getting ready to go out with their families...re-union...Its fun..I miss all those things..Though I have never been with my family since the age of 3....For me it was studies..then the job..Dont know where my 25 years went off...Life is too short...I am realising that now...I dont know how many hours I would have wasted to get a glimpse of a girl...Who is happily engaged to someone....I dont know how many hours I would have spent on
roads when the same girl was sitting and watching TV with her family..I dont know how many hours of my lifetime has been wasted travelling just to get a glimpse of her..Who is having her own family now...Seriously we guys are a shit...We never give our time to our parents...Running
behing a stupid girl....who runs behind a stupid guy...Its a cycle..Deadlock...Split this word...It has a meaning guys....Guys will be dead....Girls will be wed-locked...Deadlock was derived from here....Still reading this stupid analysis...Crazy..!!! Haah!! Shall update my photo to this blog tomorrow...You guys can do Thu!! yaakh!! on that...

I always believed(Atleast the middle class guys) ..We guys are like a shirt/trouser piece....by the time we stitch ourselves with our efforts..By the time we press ourselves with all the pressures...Get into something that can be worn...The customer(Rather I would like to call girl) would have chosen some ready made thing ..wear it and go....Girls prefer ready made
clothes..Because the looks are nice and well.....But they never understand the stitched ones are more durable..fit into anything ..Adjustable....The stitched rejected ones usually go to seconds market..Where someone would choose us without any option( Arranged marriage)....Crazzy thought haah!!


My sunday began on a sad note....This is a love note which I have written without knowing whom to give...May be I shall write it here...
Note:
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( Read it in SRKs Voice for more fun and effect..Then you would cy more).

My Sweetheart,

My world turns into heaven when I found you. There so much happiness and joy knowing I have found my true love in you. I have been so glad and so proud your mine because you are one true person, so faithful and so loving.

You are different from any other person that I knew before. So much honesty and beauty comes from within you. When people look at you, they would come to like you too. My dad..My mom..My sisters..and my friends...I hope you will never change. I hope you will stay the same 'cause I love the way you are.

You are so amazing that you make me feel complete. I would not want any other person. I only want you in my life. I could not love anyone because my heart only cries for you. I would be useless and worthless in this world, no reason to live any longer if you are not here with me, if you will leave me. Loving you is my joy. I promise I will not exchange you for anything. You are my hope and my dream that is coming true.

So Many night I lay down and cry not knowing the reason why? Holding your photo and staring at you, uttering those sweet words just for you. I wish you can see me. I wish you can hear me. I wish you can kiss me and hold me tight.

I have this pain deep inside. Longing for you each day and night. I'm missing you my Love.
I'm missing you so badly. If I think about the future, just you and me together. I find myself smiling, for I know it will happen soon. This waiting made me long for you more and more each day. I love you my Darling. Now matter how far, no matter how long the waiting may be. I will love you more and more each day ... Now, I understand the reasons for those tears I shed. It was tears of joy of having you. Though distance between us kept us apart but I know it's only in body but never in heart. If I have one thing to thank right now... that's when you came into my life.

There is something going on deep within my heart. A strange feeling that I don't seem to understand. I don't really know why you are always on my mind every now and then. Every time you are near, I just don't know what to do. When you start to talk, I hardly find a word to say...it's like I’m out of breath. My heart beats so fast. I feel so lifted each time you're around. So much beauty surrounds me every time you smile. It’s like you are

everything...and I really think, I have fallen for you. I love you.

I hope and wish you felt the same way too. How I wish we could be together one day but if it would be far from happening, if love would not give a way for us because all you wanted from me is only my friendship, it’s just okay for me.

I will still love you no matter what. However, if you feel the same way too, you will definitely bring joy to my lonely soul. You will definitely give warm to my cold lonely nights. Colors will bloom along my way and you will see smile in my heart everyday. That is how much I love you. That is how much I wanted you in my life.

Yours
~~Shashank~~

Sad aah!! ....Sad!!

Still writing a kavana..Once that is ready...I shall put up here....Things are just so boring for me here.. I have become very silent..I dont talk to anyone ( there is no option to talk)....I just sit silent in my room..I just feel like a tiger which is locked up in a zoo and fed with food time to time...Four walls...TV for entertainment..No one can understand what the tiger is dying for....They think its hungry and feed with more food...Similarly I am here. No one can understand whats there in my mind...I have stopped crying which is very dangerous..I have stopped laughing which is more dangerous than that...But my soul cries for someone
continuously.....For the love which is not mine anymore....

Sunday morning woke up at around 7:30..Switch on TV to see American Pie in German in one of the channels..CHannel thrai(3)......As I had already seen the movie..It was much easier to correlate things on the TV..Was able to understand..Cooked egg fried rice with yesterdays remaining rice..Ate that and slept off again( just imagine!!!!!) .....Woke up at around 1 PM..Ate and watched movie..( The curious case of Benjamin)..Man it was so boring...Was about to sleep again....phew!!!!! Evening we went for a walk...Went to some Turkish hotel and ate Doner
Kebaps...It was yummy..!! Came back home...Shall update this blog and sleep off again....isn;t it boring....


I was born romantic..Love ruined me.....(Copied from I was born intelligent education ruined me)..SOrry guys...Need to fill pages in my blog...

Read one more creation For some one special...

My Beloved,

I feel you in the morning When at first I awake. Your thought is with me With each decision I make. You'd been around forever since the first breath I took. Now I have to go on alone but for love I need not look because of what you bestowed. In our short time together every memory will last in my heart forever and ever.
Although you've left and walk above, I'm never alone cause i'm wrapped in you love. Enjoy now your long awaited reward and feel the peace in your heart. What was taught to me will be taught to mine because you live on in me even after you're gone. I will always remember you.

Todays Menu:
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1. Morning - Egg fried rice..
2. Afternoon - Yesterdays Aloo sambaar + rice...
3. Evening - Doner kebap...
4. Night - Yesterdys Aloo sambaar ( sad) + rice....

Now dozing off guysssssssssssssss.................
Missing you all..Closing this blog with this interesting thought..

It’s not late.. Forget your egos, past……….., and express your love to others………. Be friendly…………… keep smiling and be happy for ever…

Chill :)

hope u guys are having a blast there in summer..I know its hot...Simply kidding..Enjoy life..Follow the above rule...Enjoyyyyyy....

Love,
Shashank

saturday: When my heart was broken....

Hey...

How does someone feel to be alone?
Amidst the crowd....
Peoples talk seems crap..
World seems so boring...
Days so so long...and nights greater than the day...

How does someone feel to laugh?
When he craves to cry...
When mind is like a balloon ..
Continuously Filled with tears...
In your thoughts.....
Ready to explode........Boom!!!

How does one feel to be serene?
When one is tumultuous inside...
When nothing looks good..except you..
When each breathe is so heavy....
The air which contains aroma of yours...
I feel pristine because of that....

How does it feel to be strong...?
When one is shattered...
Dreams Shattered inside...
Bcoz this much love I have...
For the love that does not exist.


How does it feel to pretend to be joyful?
When someone is dying every moment…
Dying to be in someones arms..
which is not his own now...

How does it feel to be deserted?
When one desperately need some one to talk to…
But the same desperation is not seen
in the recipient....

How does it feel to be resilient?
When some one has lost everything...

How does it feel?
When someone can’t feel anything….
When everything is So soona soona...

With this creation I want to start my todays blog...This is just my creation hdaaah!!

Days here have become quiet sunny...Temperature soaring upto 21 degrees.. Am not missing Bangalore at all..Weather
is just as in Chikmaglur or some hill station....Boring..I feel places meant to be cold should be cold ...If they
become warm ..Its like a foreigner wearing Saree...Though she will be looking pretty..Things are not in place...Something like that....Worst analogy..haah :) Who cares...my blog...huuH ahaha..!!

And one more analogy I can give is, the snow on the mountains and the dress wore by girls ....As the snow melts..The amount of dressing reduces...I have witnessed it here....The hotel/Suits where I am staying..THey have a restaurant of their own..A garden restaurant which obviously opens during the summer...It has opened...Its just below my window..I can see people having a nice time with their family..Celebrating Summer...rather spring..

I can see the hard flesh of the trees loosening up...Flexing their muscles for the spring action...I can see green
at the edge of the winter-shed trees...I can see flowers budding...I can sense this is going to be
colorful..Green, orange..Yellow..Blue..Red...WOw!! :) Feeling good..Already few plants have bloomed fully..I could
see the colorful Europe now...I can hear the birds chirping..I can see them happy..They are so excited ..As
excited as a girl in Chinese REstaurant(The time between order and Serve)..Cool..:)...Capturing these moments in
my heart...I feel great to witness this Mother Earths metamorphosis...

With all these, woke up a bit late around 8:30 AM..Took bath..Then myself and Pangi decided to go out somewhere..Finally we decided we shall go to Rewe..Its a shop just like metro in Bangalore....huge...We went there and saw things...They were pretty much costlier than Bangalore...So I did not buy anything...hmmmm :(.Pangi Bought a shoes for Ajays kid...So from that huge shop we both finally came out with a small shoes..In between Pangi never stops at one place to see anything..He is a little impatient...So I was lost in between..I was so petrified...Took 3 rounds of that shop...ouch!! Leg was aching...Finally my mind came into normal terms when I saw a huge figure seeing stuff there...That was Pangi..We came back home..Cooked the menu below...Ate and I slept off...Evening 6 I woke up...This time me Pangi and Brajesh went to Plarrer to buy something to drink..I bought mixed fruit juice..We came back...Pangi n Brajesh were planning to booze later that night...So I came back to room..Ate anna sambaar and fruits..Watched one movie...The movie name is sex drive....(Its a decent movie..dirty minds)....A comedy one..It is a comedy movie..In some scenes I could not even breathe ..I was laughing so much...Was still not getting sleep after the movie....So swtiched on TV..A horror movie was coming....Though not interested....I was watching...some thrill was there in that...It should be understood, love and horror have no language barriers...Crap!! It can happen to anyone...It was really scary..I compensated for that comedy haah!!..When I closed my eyes..I was getting that scary thoughts..Thu!! Why did I even watch that..:( Crap..

In between I had called my friends Anand, Aru & Latha...Spoke to them...Miss them a lot!! Missing Teja and Harsha also...

It was a boring Saturday..With nothign exciting done.....

Finally dozed offffffffff!!!!!!!!!!!!! Guyyyyyyy!!!


Todays Menu:
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1. Morning - Corn flakes..
2. Afternoon - Superb Aloo sambaar.
3. Evening - 3 difft types of pastries
4. Night - Aloo sambaar and Rice..


Have tagged these songs..Was listening to these songs today ..

1. Kisi roz tumse..Mullaakaath hogi..Meri jaan uss din mere saath hogi..Magar kab na jaane..yeh barsaath
hogi..Mera dil hein pyaasa..Mera dil akelaaa.....Zaraa tasweer se thu..Nikal ke saamne aa merri mehbooba...

2. Tum seh hi - Instrumental..When she runs and comes and hug him...for the last time...That kiss scene...I feel
happy ..Dont know why...Listening to that..So listened to that 10 times minimum..

3. And this one song from one new Album Mithoon....I am in love with this song..Silent and superb!!!!

Went so crazy after seeing this video..Video is so awesome...If anyone gets chance..See it...Have downloaded..

lyRics goes like this..:

Tuhi mera saaraa jahan hai,
Tuhi mere rab ki tarha hai.

Kahi tere dilki panaaho mei,
maine paya mujhe teri chaahon mei
jaise logaan jalta ho harpal kahi,
meri khwahish mei yu tu jalaa hai.

Tuhi mera saaraa jahan hai,
Tuhi mere rab ki tarha hai.

Bepanaah mai tujhko chahta hoon,
tuhi hai mere dil ka sukoon,
tu dikhe hai mujhko chaarsu.
Mai tujhe hi fakat dhundta hoon,
tuhi dil ki aarzoo.
Dilto mera ye aksar kare,
duur tujhse naa ekpal rahu.
Teri parchhayi bhi hai bohot dilnashi,
tu hasaa to ye aalam hasaa hai.

Jo lafzo se tuune buuna hai,
wo hasi pyar ka silsila hai.
Jo akho mei teri likha hai
wo akho se maine padha hai.

Tuhi mera saaraa jahan hai,
Tuhi mere rab ki tarha hai
Kahi tere dilki panaaho mei,
maine paya mujhe teri chaahon mei
jaise logaan jalta ho harpal kahi,
meri khwahish mei yu tu jalaa hai.


Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!

Love ,
Shashank