Curtains pulled ............

A Message by George Carlin:
"The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this
insight, or to just hit delete... "

With that beautiful message or gyan..Long one right..:) but loved it.. I shall start my blog today...This message really impressed me..Everything seems so true isn't it?.... Hmmmmm....

I was telling about the girls ( King kong..that story) in my previous post right...I got pissed off.....So requested for new curtains with these hotel guys..Which are not see through..Now no more peeping..No more janjat!! ...Its over....THank god for that..I can have my privacy..I dont want to see those girls..crap!!!!

After all these, the song which I sang after this accomplishment..Now I am feeling alright..

Jhumka gira de
Jo milale agar woh nazar se nazar mein taale
Nachke dikade,
Sabki dhadkan mein kadam se kadam milale
Lehron si chaal pe chaal bichade
Dil ko yun behaal bana de
Par deewane mane
Na dekhi koi aisi girl

Dekhi lakh lakh pardesi girl.............
Ain’t nobody like my desi girl...........
Dekhi lakh lakh pardesi girl
Sab toh soni saadi desi girl..

Who’s the hottest girl in the world?
My desi girl..My desi girl..
Thumka lagaike she’ll rock your world
My desi girl..My desi girl

Pade kamar pe jo nazar
Saare sapno mein rang bhar jaaye
Jo tham le woh haath toh
Hus ke hi aashiq mar jaayein

Dhoondon jahan mein chahe kahin
Na tumko milegi koi aisi girl

Dekhi lakh lakh pardesi girl
Ain’t nobody like my desi girl
Dekhi lakh lakh pardesi girl
Sab toh soni saadi desi girl
Who’s the hottest girl in the world?
My desi girl
My desi girl
Thumka lagaike she’ll rock your world
My desi girl
My desi girl

Really man....No one is as beautiful as my desi girl....
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Feeling alright now...my kind of girl I can never find here...Though they look beautiful from outside.....God only should help their inner beauty....Their soul is not as clean as their skin...To resist cold they shall smoke....cold is gone but their lungs gets choked...And I dont even look at them properly...I am caught up in my own imagination all the time...I dream about her and live with her....

Zarre Zarre mein useeeee ka noor hain...
jhaankh kudh mein woh na tujh se door hain..
Ishq hein usse tho sabse ishq karr!!!
Ishq hein usse tho sabse ishq karrrr!!!
Issss ibaadath ka yaheen dasthoor hein....

Isme usme aur usme hain wohi...
Isme usme aur Usme hain wohin..
yaar mera har taraf bhar poor hain...


Went to office at around 8:30 AM, It was a sunny clear day...With just a tinge of cold in the breeze..the angry abdullah who sits in my room smiled at me...Thats it..And I was all alone through out the day except fot the chutta sessions with Brajesh and Pangi...I am so desperate to talk to someone..I dont mind doing passive smoking there in the smoking room...I talk to them there for 5 mins ..Once I Come back..Again the same silence,..The same loneliness....Somehow will try and do my work...Getting a bit busier now..Thank god :)...

one funny thing is sun sets here at 8:30 PM or 9 PM..GOd this is first time my body is witnessing something like this of the celestial system...I left office at around 7:30 PM..I was thinking all the way why I am leaving office so early..It was like some 4 PM...But actually it was 7:45 PM...Crazy thing..First my body has to adjust to time..Now, the light............According to me, nights should be dark and days should be filled with light....This crazy thing.....I was just thinking if the same thing would have happened in India ..what would different people do and was laughing inside my mind..Thinking so many things...Reached home..Cooked egg fried rice...Yes its a fried rice..ate it..Eating ice cream with wafers now...Shall write down my thoughts and sleep off....

Suddenly a thought comes to my mind...Some great guy has said.." Girls are to be loved not to be understood" ..Then all the time I tried loving a girl sincerely without any calculation or manipulation...I did not tried to understand her...Never ...Ever..I simply loved her with my 100%...but why did not she understood that...

Might be If I want to tell the same to a girl: " Boys are to be understood not to be loved.."..why did she not understood my love.......why?? ...With all these mixed thoughts...Mr. Lonely signing off..

Singing Akons song..

: Lonely hi mr lonely...
I have nobody for my own...
Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely...........


Missing you all people a lot!!! Keep reading for more updates from my side....

Love,
Shashank

Sunday - March 29th 2009

Hi,

Todays note: "I have been astonished that men could die martyrs for their religion -I have shudderedd at it. Laughed at them.............I shudder no more. I could be martyr'd for my religion..I could be martyred for my god...Love is my religion..And I could die for that. I could die for you my god, my love. ....I love you, I love but you With a love that shall not die...Till the sun grows cold..And the stars grow old. ..........I love you with everything I have"

Sunday was so boring in the morning. Woke up late. Cleaned my room. Was watching TV. Thankfully I am MTV types. In the sense I used to enjoy Roadies and splitsvilla kinda things...Hee hee :).....Here we get programs like that...Love Tequila...Shot of love where so many guys will be dumped in a house where they will be competing for one beautiful semi-nude awful girl ...Yakkh!! But I watch them bcoz thats the only channel with english sub-titles....And finally
some girl or a guy or a gurl(chakka) would get that girl...And she smiles happily for finding her partner...what a crazy thing to do on a national television..but people watch it and I am one of them...Hee hee :)

Whole day I was at room( slightly mood off). Evening an hour of day light save time was added to +CET...I did not know that...I was sleeping guys...I was still thinking I am 4:30 hours away from India...It was only 3:30 hours..I felt so light ..I just felt I have come closer to India....hmmmmm....I have come closer to you guys....a difference of an hour...

IN the evening went down to laundry area and was pressing my clothes....Thats when we all decided to go out..(Pangi, Brajesh and me)..Exciting!!!!! .We went to Lorenz Kirche again....This time it was great.....We went to few castles...Perfect Europe haah!! We went to top of the castle and saw a couple so intimate and god they were just one step away from..?? ...Suddenly remembered Lalbagh ..!!@$$ Apart from that, the view from the top was awesome..Just great..Where we could see whole of NurenBerg from there...It was a nice outing...have taken snaps this time..Shall upload it...Again roamed around in the mini-Venice kind of roads..Where there was a fair kind of thing happenind..Where farmers were selling their home grown stuffs just like our "santhe"....Hopped into few malls..Did not buy anything though...Saw one awesome jacket but it was 90 EUROS....unbelievable!! :(....kept it there..I shall tell one more time guys, things are pretty costly here..

I am bored of seeing beautiful girls ..God!! show me some bad creations of yours now....Enough..I am feeling guilty to look after myself in the mirror...!!

From there went to HaupthenHof...Its like our city railway station...Saw few trains to Munich, Berlin n all......

From there came back to room, cooked palak...It was good...But still palak was not similar to India one...So taste was a bit different..chit-chat in Brajeshs room..Came back and dozed off...........

One happy news, summer has started here...No more janjat of wearing two-three layers of jackets....thats not the happy part..Happy part is, people(females) shall wear minimal clothes it seems..!! :)....Just imagine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

With all these thoughts, missing you all guys...Was just imagining..The same place and If I had all my friends, people I love here...It would have been heaven....But how much ever the place is, its not as beautiful as the people who loves us, cares for us...Just missing you all a lot!!!

Love,
Shashank

The weekend following Ugadi....

Today I want to start with this note: " I could wait for a long time until I die also, if you would just say you would be there. I could love you more and more, if loving you is worth all the pains and the tears in my heart. You could be my music, a melody my heart loves to sing. You could be my forever; if forever would be your melody too. However, if the end of it all, my heart would just be broken. I think I would rather try to forget you and me sharing the same feelings and if the end of it all I’d see myself waiting for someone who is not even there, I’d rather forget my love for you, even if it would hurt me so...it's hard, but I have to. I was searching for love for quite a while, then I have found you. I thought it would last forever, but I was wrong... so wrong. In the middle of my loneliness and longing, in the middle of being so alone in a place where no one seems to care, you came along.You found me there on the road side. You lift me up and you give me hope. You give me the kind of love that I have never received to anyone before. Now I am wrapped around with your loving arms. sealed in your kiss...I feel Love is within my reach annd I feel so secure with you. You always told me to never let go and never give up on love 'cause everything in this world begins because of love. I want to thank you for that. I would be lost without you. I would really be lost....."

Hmmm The day started off early at around 6:15 AM...Its drizzling lightly...Me bidding bye to my Infineons manager Niraj....He went to India..Was felling like running with him to see someone there..to see someone who is waiting for me....Kidding apart ..No one is waiting there for me ...So my mind is consoled...heart is still yearning ..longing to see someone...Dont know ....With all these thoughts...Called my mother..Spoke to her for an hour..I can feel she is missing me so much..So madly...Yesterday Ugadi...All those addendums...But I act as if I am very happy here....cracking jokes..When I know what state she is in?...She is the only waiting soul there for me..>And my dad who is so busy in constructing house..Our house...where they dream to see my marriage......their dream house.....I want to live till the day they step in there...And I want to see their reaction...I want to see the happiness on their face....

Today I am totally sad...tears still rolling down while writing this blog...I have got so much love..Of my parents..Of my three sisters..And so many people who are not my family but still loves me like mad....But still I am missing something..I am missing someone...She lives me in my imagination.I talk to her.I write so beautiful poems for her.Lucky is the one who receives it..crazzy haa!!!

Morning went to Marktkauf..To shop eatables....And NurnBerg is too costly except for the apples and few fruits...Bought palak and ice creams...We came back..Cooked tasty food along with home made french fries..Unbelievable?? Hee hee :) Yeah I atleast tried..It was not upto the MAc-D mark though.....

After that we went to Lawrence Kirche...Its a nice place..Market..people..Churches..By the way Europeans girls are the most beautiful man...I agreed that and everyone should agree..If these people come to India..Kareena and Katrina really will be a scrap in front of them....And they would start acting in kannada serials...I swear....I feel jeans and jackets were made to these girls..And nice boots..They look stunning...Perfectly crafted body..To that a perfectly fitting narrow jeans..nice jacket and a perfectly fitting boots....They are amazing...But no one sees at us...We ugly Asians...They might be thinking like that..Atleast they would think after seeing me...hmmmmmmm :( sad...A bad icon of Asia--> India -->> bangalore.....Anyway nothing can be changed now...In Lawrence Kirche went to multiple shopping malls....similar ones to Shoppers stoppe ..Things were too too costly..Had an idea of buying a camera here. Have dropped that idea now...So no snaps...sad :( Lawrence Kirche has one river..over which a bridge is built..Along side we have shopping malls and streets like commercial streets...Its like a haven , a paradise to take a stroll on the weekends..Slightly I am loving this place...haa....:)...

Came back to room...Cooked food...And I have made few girl friends here..I am serious this time. In front of my room there is a flat where girls keep their window open and they keep on looking for this stranger...They even sometimes call their other flatmate girls and wave at me and shout haalo haalo....I feel so shy.god!!...Hee hee I feel I am like a King kong hurraah!!! ..Crazy...They want to see this creature ..I feel like that....I feel embarassed...only during night time the doors are see through...Uff!! Luckily....Else they would have seen this King kongs chaddi also..Thank god....for that.You have made mornings...

With all these.Have put my clothes in the washing machine..Will bring it..Eat food and sleep off..

Thanks for ur patience guys...Keep reading for more fun...Have a nice day/night/evening/morning....

Missing my friends...Missing my Bangalore..Missing my Shimoga...Missing my Basavanagudi....Missing my pulsar..boo hoooo :(

Vrrrrrrrrrrroooooooooooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!

Love ya all ...

Love
Shashank

The droplets of my mind tree...

Today is Ugadi...I miss home a lot..I really miss it............

Here I am in NurnBerg, Germany...The Germanish place on Germany. Its raining, snowing, sunny..We can see all the seasons in a day..Except the season of love. . .Sitting here in COmneon Gmbh a sister company of Infineon, Sudwest Park..(which is similar to ITPL in Bengaluru, though it does not have the charm or beauty it has, females in the shopping mall downstairs :) or the check they do, sometimes I feel like I am entering Wagah border while entering ITPL but it was good)....I have been given a large room( In Bangalore the entire staff of Shanti sagar can stay over here, crack people!!!..My entire house in Bangalore is smaller than this), where i live with a German manager(angry old man who is always worried about worries), my loneliness and the skills to be a software engineer.....Few peoples face comes now and then..They haunt me....All the fun I had...Pulling me towards India..I hold back..Because it was my stupid decision to come here at this age.....I call this half ripened age(Either I should have come a bit early when i was youth or a bit late when I was married)..Now seriously mind wont stand this loneliness...but still have to live...if not for me..for my parents (they think I have made them proud))...A village dog making it to a big continent like this and flying n all...Great thing aah!! ( for them)....But for me...This is not the right destination...Can you believe a person who was talking one billion words per day tsays 2-3 hallos thats it!!!!!!!!!!!( written specifically wrong bcoz Germans call hello as haalo.....Saalo!!...)....And this guy who sits in front of me does not even look at me except once in the morning....

I wanted to see Europe so badly( the after effects of watching DDLJ which had made me crazy)....I thought its such a wonderful place..But its good for photographers..Its good for people who gives more importance to fashion,money than life....
But not a place for someone like me......

And with all these things Im madly love with someone in India...dont guess it wrong...My mother....After all the love stories I saw personally I believe only she can love me so much ..Her love is so pure..So warm...So genuine....I have observed love...experimented with it....Which ever love I saw was so calculative....I have never expressed this to her though....anytime...I act only because i want to see her happy..She cries without me there..She does not even eat food...I believe no other bizzare female would have done that for me..I love her so much from within...she is my love....(Remembering the popular song from Taare Zameen par..Maa..)...

And people here expects (atleast in this office) that all people are born Einstein and they know things from birth...(its all the effect of their work culture one guy works in a module for 10 years with a beard n all, these guys are more scientists than engineers)....I still cant believe it :).....................

With no much difference in my life between Bangalore and NurnBerg...The same wandering soul which was alone there and is here as well....Only the streets have changed....And the destination....

These are the few droplets at the tip of my huge mind tree.....they were about to fall....Have captures them...........

Love,
Shashank