Halo,
It was a frying friday...It was such a boring day no....God..!!! And till now I have not understood..what I should call this place..Some people spell it as NurnBerg..Some Nuremberg....Hmmm!! With this confusion.....and so many thoughts running in my mind....Writing this blog....
Morning was chatting with my friends as many of my friends were online..Most of the offices were working in India....hmmmmmm....Guys, I have installed hell lot of games in this laptop...Playing them one after other...Totally got sucked in playing games.....Started off from Maxpayne to cueball to tanks to super Mario....phew~!!!! Afternoon my eyes were strained...and of all the games I loe Maxpayne alot... this is the third time I am playing it...Can you believe it.?? Might be it has some emotional touch to it...Its about a cop, whose wife and kid will be killed by gangsters.....and how that cop goes on taking revenge...It is awesome...So full fireworks guys...Changing the gun..ammo..jumping..shooting..It was full of action....So friday was filled with lot of action....Virtually!!!
Was just thinking how dumb I am ..If I had planned a bit earlier I could have gone to Paris. Have few friends there. I could have seen Paris atleast and come...But going alone till there in the train is a boring thing isn;t it?? So decided it good from one side...And one more thought seriously I need to buy sunglasses...God they say the rays here are some oblique or something..it contains more UV..I dont know the scientific reason but yes I am witnessing it. My eyes will have some burning sensation..Once I go out in Sunlight............
One thought which came to my mind...
" Orataadha aa maradha dhimmi indha chigurodedhu hasiru bandhidhe....Kallugala melu garikeyaa chiguru odedidhe....gattiyaadha ee bhoomi indha...neerodedhu..Chilume yaagi..chimmidhe...Neenobbalu hennu..bhari manujalu..Ninnadhu maamsa tumbidha myi..Ninnolage nanna preethi chigurodayalillave....gattiyaadha ninna manassindha nanna preethi kambanigalu chimmalillave....Aaseygala garikegalu chiguralillave...."
hmmmmmm.....
With this...It was a super duper dinner..Doner Kebap + rice and curd + deserts + juice .....Hee hee :) All at home...WIth TV..Just imagine...I enjoyed food to its bit....Dont know after so many days I was feeling I am eating curd rice which is mixed by my mother..When I was young I always used to get curd rice mixed by somebody else...like mother..my grandmother..Taste is totally different when they mix...Dont know they might have added their love to it...Till date I love if somebody feeds me food with their hand..Have I not grown up?? or...?? I dont know...So a girl who marries me will be having a tough time..haah :(.......hmmmmm...
The apartments in front of my room are totally empty...They all have gone for summer vacation..But all at the same time..hmmmmmmmmmm :(....So night it will be completely dark out there......Missing out some familiar faces...But I feel happy for them..They are having a blast with their family..
The garden restaurant is turning out to be Nandhini of Bangalore...I am comparing only in the sense of madness rush out there in Nandhini...saturday, Sunday we can get appointment in Narayana Hrudayalaaya But not a seat in Nandhini...Crazzy guys we all are...We come at 1:30...Wait till 3:15 for Lunch...Take unlimited meals...By then out hunger would have died..Upon that he would have added baking soda...eat 10 rs ka mini meals and pay 80 Rs and go home...With a smile on face and gas in belly....hee hee :)...All because of we IT people....I am not against spending a good time with spouse on a weekend...But not there...In that mad rush like majestic....It should be calm...where one can see others face...fall in love with her/him again and again...I feel a place should be like that....Else cooking at home and eating while watching a movie on TV....That will be more beautiful....I know any girl reading this would hate this ........
With this..In the evening we went for Furth..Furth is in the outskirts of NurnBerg....It has a huge huge park..We went there...one round we took..It was like walking from J P nagar to Basavanagudi..Legs were paining like hell... It was then I decided to have some heavy dinner..So took doner Kebap...And I was just thinking if the same park was in Bangalore...There was big stream in the mid of park...It was so clean..so peaceful..So serene...I was just thinking...how poeple in India would have eaten hell lot of things there..Spread plastic like mad dogs....washed their hands in that stream...Some people would have even brought biryani(I have seen it in lalbagh guys)..........India cannot be changed..Atleast in these things we should change.;......
Will keep updating my thoughts here guys..Keep reading...
Have a blast!!!! Enjoy each moment..Enjoy each day....For all those who are in love..Spend quality time with your spouses....Have a great time....For time is a valuable thing...Have great respect for it.......
Missing Bengaluru.........Missing all the updated on bollywood movies and gossips on zoom and kannada songs on U2.........And obvisously Raodies, Splitsvilla and all on MTV...
Because of we crazy guys , MTV has been awarded the maximum TRP...Budda buddi everyone is behind MTV now...hee hee :).....Prgrams like Youngisthaan and all which are meant for young people will be telecast at the time when no youngy will be there at home....so budda buddis are watching it...
Todays Menu:
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1. No breakfast
2. Lunch - swalpa rice + kaalu pallya
3. Dinner - Doner Kebap + rice + curds + desert ( chocolate icecream)...
Missing you all guys.........
Love,
Shashank
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Happy easter....lot to read guys...
hello...
This is Razor light's new album..Wire-to-wire....Just love this song....How this is picturised no....he starts with a match stick flame and he ignites another match stick once that gets fully burnt.....The whole song is shot like this...In the light of a match stick...Too good innovative idea isn't it?? Great!!!!! This is an apt lyrics for someone........................
Lyrics goes like this:
=======================
What is love but the strangest of feelings?
A sin you swallow for the rest of your life?
You've been looking for someone to believe in
To love you, until your eyes run dry
She lives on disillusion road
We go where the wild blood flows
On our bodies we share the same scar
Love me, wherever you are
How do you love with a fate full of rust?
How do you turn what the savage take?
You've been looking for someone you can trust
To love you, again and again
How do you love in a house without feelings?
How do you turn what that savage take?
I've been looking for someone to believe in
Love me, again and again
She lives by disillusions glow
We go where the wild blood flows
On our bodies, we share the same scar
How do you love on a night without feelings?
She says "love, I hear sound, I see fury"
She says "love's not a hostile condition"
Love me, wherever you are
Love me, wherever you are
Love me, wherever you are
Wherever you are
==================================================================================================================
Great song isn't it?? Loved it .....
This is just an article which I got..Serious research done ....Why men are never sad:
Men Are Just Happier People-- What do you expect from such simple creatures? Your last name stays put. The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car mechanics tell you the truth. The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky. You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt. Same
work, more pay. Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress $5000. Tux rental-$100. People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them. New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet. One mood all the time.
Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat. You know stuff about tanks. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase. You can open all your own jars. You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness. If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.
Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-pack. Three pairs of shoes are more than enough. You almost never have strap problems in public. You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes. Everything on your face stays its original color. The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades. You only have to shave your face and neck.
You can play with toys all your life. One wallet and one pair of shoes -- one color for all seasons. You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look. You can 'do' your nails with a pocket knife. You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes.
No wonder men are happier.
Yes we men are happier!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hee heee :) I was laughing on the floor after reading this.................
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Now I would explain what is meant by a woman with an example...
A wife was making a breakfast of fried eggs for her husband. Suddenly
her husband burst into the kitchen.
"Careful ... CAREFUL! Put in some more butter! Oh my GOD! You're cooking
too many at once. TOO MANY! Turn them! TURN THEM NOW! We need more
butter. Oh my GOD! WHERE are we going to get MORE BUTTER? They're going
to STICK! Careful ... CAREFUL! I said be CAREFUL! You NEVER listen to me
when you're cooking!
Never! Turn them! Hurry up! Are you CRAZY? Have you LOST your mind?
Don't forget to salt them. You know you always forget to salt them. Use
the salt. USE THE SALT! THE SALT!"
The wife stared at him. "What in the world is wrong with you? You think
I don't know how to fry a couple of eggs?"
The husband calmly replied, "I wanted to show you what it feels like
when I'm driving." !!!!
Woman gets tensed for simple things on this planet, makes it complex and solves very complex problem easily...So if u can understand this statement...Then u have understood a girl..COngatulations...!!!!
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Finally buying a camera guys....Its Sony W230....Hmmm!!! Now I should be able to click some snaps and like every onsite guy does..Even I shall take photos of grass, hills, trees, snow, statues, and all....Upload it in orkut or picasa...If interested you can always see my album...I shall update it....
Things are going to be boring.....4 days...but I shall make it exciting somehow..Planning to go to the outskirts of the town...cycling...Planning to go to Furth Harhohe....NuremBerg Zoo.....and all...Lets see..........
And I have decided..If I dont get any company..I shall go to Swiss alone atleast and come back..Just imagine..Its a dream from the year 1995...When Kajol comes and catches that train in DDLJ....I always wanted to travel in such train once..Thats fulfilled..Infact saturated.Daily I commute on such trains....Now swiss...and take a photo in SRKs pose.....Thats it...My wish will be fulfilled.....!!! So will be aming for it and Salsburg in Austria..Wow man....I should go for it once...Lets see....In this two months what I will do....
Today for one hour I was just sitting in my balcony....and watching moon...Its a full moon...It seems so lonely....Since the Earth has embraced Sun ( long daylight time)..It seems upset...because it can be with earth only for a short duration. ...Might be for the same reason...It just wants to show the amount of love it has for Earth...In this short duration....its shining so brightly....and moving so swiftly....Dont know what hurry is it in....it moved the entire horizon in just few mins.....crazzy thing!!!
With this I am writing my creation....:
" Earth and Moon are relatively close whem measured in units of light years..Aadhre ee moon ge adhu tumba doora anstha idhe..Adhu aa bhoomiya saniha ne baystha irathe idee jeevana..Aadhre chandira bhoomi ya hathraa barakke agatha ..Illa..Yendighu illa.Yaake gotha if Moon comes near Earth ashte pralaya aagi hogathe..Bhoomi li barbara alegaleddhu allola kallola aagi hogathe..Adakke ee olava chandamaama adhra bhavanegalanna belandingalaagi aa bhoomi mele dhoordindha ne chelli..Adharalle kushi padthaaaaa...Aa tampina hotthalli adhara aasegalu ibbani hanigalaagi soki bhoomi li seri hogathe...Hallinantha modagalu bhoomi ya manadangaladallella odaadtha, bhoomi ge kachuguli idathe....Samudradha alegalaagi bandhu bhommi na badidhu badidhu helathe , nodu naanu ninna ishtu preethi maadthini antha..Bhoomi adhannu arthaane maadkoladhe munjaaneya sooryange kaadhu kulitandidhe.....aa bhoomige idhanna helvaru yaaru...Sooryana belakindhaane aa bhoomi li hasiru haradadhu...hoovu araladhu....Jeeva naliyuvudhu...aadhre idhannu aa chandranige yaaru heladhu....Intha hucchu preemi ee chendiraa...."
And also wrote this, Although no recipient is there ....Just writing it here........
" Tandhe taayi ibbara preethi kottu, beledingala berisi ootavinnittu.....
kannnugala maathalle Laali ya haadi...Nanna yedheya goodalli bandhisi saavigu hedaradhe edhe koduve..
Nee kannu mucchi kulithare ninna kannaagiruve naanu..
NInna kanasallu kaavaliruve..Nanna dukha nungi..Ninna naguvaagi hommi baruve gelethi..
Nanna kannugalalli ninna kanassanu tumbi kondu..avugalannu saakara golisi..
Ninna Haneya chumbisi..Nannela preethiyanittu...
Nangene kashta bandharu nanna kanninna kannadiyannu kanniru daatadanthe..
Ninna naguvalle naguvaagi..preetisuve ninna nanna maguvaagi.."
Sorry guys nanna manasse sari illa......Illa andhrfe had written pages of kavanas...............Yaaro ello yeno novu.......
Todays menu:
============
Tindige bread...ootakke bread....Raathri ge bread.....Bread ge Jai ho!!!
Devaru nimmellarigu olledh maadli...nagutha nagutha nali nali yene aagali....
No one is here guys..The apartments in front of my rooms are all empty...Everyone is on a vacation...Great..............
Missing Bangalore a lot!!!!............
Wünsche allen frohe Ostern ...Happy easter....
Love,
Shashank
This is Razor light's new album..Wire-to-wire....Just love this song....How this is picturised no....he starts with a match stick flame and he ignites another match stick once that gets fully burnt.....The whole song is shot like this...In the light of a match stick...Too good innovative idea isn't it?? Great!!!!! This is an apt lyrics for someone........................
Lyrics goes like this:
=======================
What is love but the strangest of feelings?
A sin you swallow for the rest of your life?
You've been looking for someone to believe in
To love you, until your eyes run dry
She lives on disillusion road
We go where the wild blood flows
On our bodies we share the same scar
Love me, wherever you are
How do you love with a fate full of rust?
How do you turn what the savage take?
You've been looking for someone you can trust
To love you, again and again
How do you love in a house without feelings?
How do you turn what that savage take?
I've been looking for someone to believe in
Love me, again and again
She lives by disillusions glow
We go where the wild blood flows
On our bodies, we share the same scar
How do you love on a night without feelings?
She says "love, I hear sound, I see fury"
She says "love's not a hostile condition"
Love me, wherever you are
Love me, wherever you are
Love me, wherever you are
Wherever you are
==================================================================================================================
Great song isn't it?? Loved it .....
This is just an article which I got..Serious research done ....Why men are never sad:
Men Are Just Happier People-- What do you expect from such simple creatures? Your last name stays put. The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car mechanics tell you the truth. The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky. You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt. Same
work, more pay. Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress $5000. Tux rental-$100. People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them. New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet. One mood all the time.
Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat. You know stuff about tanks. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase. You can open all your own jars. You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness. If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.
Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-pack. Three pairs of shoes are more than enough. You almost never have strap problems in public. You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes. Everything on your face stays its original color. The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades. You only have to shave your face and neck.
You can play with toys all your life. One wallet and one pair of shoes -- one color for all seasons. You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look. You can 'do' your nails with a pocket knife. You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes.
No wonder men are happier.
Yes we men are happier!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hee heee :) I was laughing on the floor after reading this.................
******************************************************************************************************************
Now I would explain what is meant by a woman with an example...
A wife was making a breakfast of fried eggs for her husband. Suddenly
her husband burst into the kitchen.
"Careful ... CAREFUL! Put in some more butter! Oh my GOD! You're cooking
too many at once. TOO MANY! Turn them! TURN THEM NOW! We need more
butter. Oh my GOD! WHERE are we going to get MORE BUTTER? They're going
to STICK! Careful ... CAREFUL! I said be CAREFUL! You NEVER listen to me
when you're cooking!
Never! Turn them! Hurry up! Are you CRAZY? Have you LOST your mind?
Don't forget to salt them. You know you always forget to salt them. Use
the salt. USE THE SALT! THE SALT!"
The wife stared at him. "What in the world is wrong with you? You think
I don't know how to fry a couple of eggs?"
The husband calmly replied, "I wanted to show you what it feels like
when I'm driving." !!!!
Woman gets tensed for simple things on this planet, makes it complex and solves very complex problem easily...So if u can understand this statement...Then u have understood a girl..COngatulations...!!!!
******************************************************************************************************************
Finally buying a camera guys....Its Sony W230....Hmmm!!! Now I should be able to click some snaps and like every onsite guy does..Even I shall take photos of grass, hills, trees, snow, statues, and all....Upload it in orkut or picasa...If interested you can always see my album...I shall update it....
Things are going to be boring.....4 days...but I shall make it exciting somehow..Planning to go to the outskirts of the town...cycling...Planning to go to Furth Harhohe....NuremBerg Zoo.....and all...Lets see..........
And I have decided..If I dont get any company..I shall go to Swiss alone atleast and come back..Just imagine..Its a dream from the year 1995...When Kajol comes and catches that train in DDLJ....I always wanted to travel in such train once..Thats fulfilled..Infact saturated.Daily I commute on such trains....Now swiss...and take a photo in SRKs pose.....Thats it...My wish will be fulfilled.....!!! So will be aming for it and Salsburg in Austria..Wow man....I should go for it once...Lets see....In this two months what I will do....
Today for one hour I was just sitting in my balcony....and watching moon...Its a full moon...It seems so lonely....Since the Earth has embraced Sun ( long daylight time)..It seems upset...because it can be with earth only for a short duration. ...Might be for the same reason...It just wants to show the amount of love it has for Earth...In this short duration....its shining so brightly....and moving so swiftly....Dont know what hurry is it in....it moved the entire horizon in just few mins.....crazzy thing!!!
With this I am writing my creation....:
" Earth and Moon are relatively close whem measured in units of light years..Aadhre ee moon ge adhu tumba doora anstha idhe..Adhu aa bhoomiya saniha ne baystha irathe idee jeevana..Aadhre chandira bhoomi ya hathraa barakke agatha ..Illa..Yendighu illa.Yaake gotha if Moon comes near Earth ashte pralaya aagi hogathe..Bhoomi li barbara alegaleddhu allola kallola aagi hogathe..Adakke ee olava chandamaama adhra bhavanegalanna belandingalaagi aa bhoomi mele dhoordindha ne chelli..Adharalle kushi padthaaaaa...Aa tampina hotthalli adhara aasegalu ibbani hanigalaagi soki bhoomi li seri hogathe...Hallinantha modagalu bhoomi ya manadangaladallella odaadtha, bhoomi ge kachuguli idathe....Samudradha alegalaagi bandhu bhommi na badidhu badidhu helathe , nodu naanu ninna ishtu preethi maadthini antha..Bhoomi adhannu arthaane maadkoladhe munjaaneya sooryange kaadhu kulitandidhe.....aa bhoomige idhanna helvaru yaaru...Sooryana belakindhaane aa bhoomi li hasiru haradadhu...hoovu araladhu....Jeeva naliyuvudhu...aadhre idhannu aa chandranige yaaru heladhu....Intha hucchu preemi ee chendiraa...."
And also wrote this, Although no recipient is there ....Just writing it here........
" Tandhe taayi ibbara preethi kottu, beledingala berisi ootavinnittu.....
kannnugala maathalle Laali ya haadi...Nanna yedheya goodalli bandhisi saavigu hedaradhe edhe koduve..
Nee kannu mucchi kulithare ninna kannaagiruve naanu..
NInna kanasallu kaavaliruve..Nanna dukha nungi..Ninna naguvaagi hommi baruve gelethi..
Nanna kannugalalli ninna kanassanu tumbi kondu..avugalannu saakara golisi..
Ninna Haneya chumbisi..Nannela preethiyanittu...
Nangene kashta bandharu nanna kanninna kannadiyannu kanniru daatadanthe..
Ninna naguvalle naguvaagi..preetisuve ninna nanna maguvaagi.."
Sorry guys nanna manasse sari illa......Illa andhrfe had written pages of kavanas...............Yaaro ello yeno novu.......
Todays menu:
============
Tindige bread...ootakke bread....Raathri ge bread.....Bread ge Jai ho!!!
Devaru nimmellarigu olledh maadli...nagutha nagutha nali nali yene aagali....
No one is here guys..The apartments in front of my rooms are all empty...Everyone is on a vacation...Great..............
Missing Bangalore a lot!!!!............
Wünsche allen frohe Ostern ...Happy easter....
Love,
Shashank
This is my last resort..Suffocation..No breathing.
Updating my blog after a long long time..Was not interested in updating ...But someone forced me to do so..So writing again guys...If u were really missing it..I was astonished by the fact that my blog has become super famous...Though not so much really...But I found it so strange when one of my chat friend asked me..Is this blog yours...Its so good...It touched me..Inspired me to write it again...
For all the people who wants to know why I did not write the blog: this song from Papa Roacha would aptly answer that question....I am listening to this song nowadays
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
This is my last resort
Cut my life into pieces
Ive reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And Im contemplating suicide
Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me in fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Nothings alright
Nothing is fine
Im running and Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
I cant go on living this way
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And Im contemplating suicide
Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Nothings alright
Nothing is fine
Im running and Im crying
I cant go on living this way
Cant go on
Living this way
Nothings alright
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Ok with all that.....I am so terrified about spending 4 days here. Its a long ...Very looooooooooooong weekend...GOsh!!! How I wish I was in Bangalore....If I was in Shimoga....Spending time with family......Missing all those moments......:(
With these thoughts heavy in my heart like a dark cloud. Missing my friends so terribly....We would have gone definitely on some long trip...Chey!! This was the right time....Hmmmm:( Miss them a lot......
SOrry not able to write much!!!!!........I am not in a state to write things...............
Love,
Shashank
For all the people who wants to know why I did not write the blog: this song from Papa Roacha would aptly answer that question....I am listening to this song nowadays
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
This is my last resort
Cut my life into pieces
Ive reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And Im contemplating suicide
Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me in fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Nothings alright
Nothing is fine
Im running and Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
I cant go on living this way
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And Im contemplating suicide
Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Nothings alright
Nothing is fine
Im running and Im crying
I cant go on living this way
Cant go on
Living this way
Nothings alright
===========================
Ok with all that.....I am so terrified about spending 4 days here. Its a long ...Very looooooooooooong weekend...GOsh!!! How I wish I was in Bangalore....If I was in Shimoga....Spending time with family......Missing all those moments......:(
With these thoughts heavy in my heart like a dark cloud. Missing my friends so terribly....We would have gone definitely on some long trip...Chey!! This was the right time....Hmmmm:( Miss them a lot......
SOrry not able to write much!!!!!........I am not in a state to write things...............
Love,
Shashank
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Its never late...........
Let me start my blog with this song In English..This song is by Nickel Back...Full deewana of this one..Its about a dad taking care of her lone girl child...Its ultimatum..Loved it...The lyrics goes like this
I will come for you
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Just one more moment
That's all that's needed
Like wounded soldiers
In need of feeling
Time to be honest
This time I'm pleading
Please don't dwell on it
'Cause I didn't mean it
I can't believe I said
I'd lay my love on the ground
But it doesn't matter
'Cause I made it up
Forgive me now
Everyday I spent away
My soul's inside out
Gotta be someway
That I can make it up
To you now some how
By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
I was blindfolded
But now I'm seeing
My mind was closing
Now I'm believing
I finally know just
What it means
To let some one in
To see the side of me
That no one does or ever will
So if you're ever lost and
Find yourself all alone
I'd search forever
Just to bring you home
Here and now, it's a vow
By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
You know I'd always come for you
No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you
Yes, I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'll always come for you
No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you
I'd crawl across this world for you
Do anything you want me to
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you
You know I'll always come for you.............
With this song..I loved these songs as well and love to hear them again and again..Silbermond ( the video is superb where she explains the war field or some protest..Everything paused...She singing..It reminds me of Dil se..)..Pink(Please dont go..where she hits ..wounds her boy friend pleading him not to go..Though its very disturbing..Its one part of love..So violent yet cool).....I was a fan of Pink for her early Song as well( I am coming..So get this party started)..GeWinner ( I could not understand a single word in it..Its German...But song is too good....Sung underwater....Loved it)......With all these songs in my belly err head..err somwehere.......Writing this blog..
I have a better idea for the pink chaddi andholan guys in India...arrange for tickets for Muthalik and send him on a Europe tour in the summer...May be in the month of May..Next year he shall only arrange for Valentines day and give paanaka(Lemonaid)...for the couples....hee hee :)..He can as well give pink chaddis...he has never seen world.....Desha nu nodilla..Kosha nu odhilla...he is a Yemme :)
Right in front of my window..I could see Families getting ready to embrace the spring..They are cleaning their bikes..cycles....Getting ready to go out with their families...re-union...Its fun..I miss all those things..Though I have never been with my family since the age of 3....For me it was studies..then the job..Dont know where my 25 years went off...Life is too short...I am realising that now...I dont know how many hours I would have wasted to get a glimpse of a girl...Who is happily engaged to someone....I dont know how many hours I would have spent on
roads when the same girl was sitting and watching TV with her family..I dont know how many hours of my lifetime has been wasted travelling just to get a glimpse of her..Who is having her own family now...Seriously we guys are a shit...We never give our time to our parents...Running
behing a stupid girl....who runs behind a stupid guy...Its a cycle..Deadlock...Split this word...It has a meaning guys....Guys will be dead....Girls will be wed-locked...Deadlock was derived from here....Still reading this stupid analysis...Crazy..!!! Haah!! Shall update my photo to this blog tomorrow...You guys can do Thu!! yaakh!! on that...
I always believed(Atleast the middle class guys) ..We guys are like a shirt/trouser piece....by the time we stitch ourselves with our efforts..By the time we press ourselves with all the pressures...Get into something that can be worn...The customer(Rather I would like to call girl) would have chosen some ready made thing ..wear it and go....Girls prefer ready made
clothes..Because the looks are nice and well.....But they never understand the stitched ones are more durable..fit into anything ..Adjustable....The stitched rejected ones usually go to seconds market..Where someone would choose us without any option( Arranged marriage)....Crazzy thought haah!!
My sunday began on a sad note....This is a love note which I have written without knowing whom to give...May be I shall write it here...
Note:
====
( Read it in SRKs Voice for more fun and effect..Then you would cy more).
My Sweetheart,
My world turns into heaven when I found you. There so much happiness and joy knowing I have found my true love in you. I have been so glad and so proud your mine because you are one true person, so faithful and so loving.
You are different from any other person that I knew before. So much honesty and beauty comes from within you. When people look at you, they would come to like you too. My dad..My mom..My sisters..and my friends...I hope you will never change. I hope you will stay the same 'cause I love the way you are.
You are so amazing that you make me feel complete. I would not want any other person. I only want you in my life. I could not love anyone because my heart only cries for you. I would be useless and worthless in this world, no reason to live any longer if you are not here with me, if you will leave me. Loving you is my joy. I promise I will not exchange you for anything. You are my hope and my dream that is coming true.
So Many night I lay down and cry not knowing the reason why? Holding your photo and staring at you, uttering those sweet words just for you. I wish you can see me. I wish you can hear me. I wish you can kiss me and hold me tight.
I have this pain deep inside. Longing for you each day and night. I'm missing you my Love.
I'm missing you so badly. If I think about the future, just you and me together. I find myself smiling, for I know it will happen soon. This waiting made me long for you more and more each day. I love you my Darling. Now matter how far, no matter how long the waiting may be. I will love you more and more each day ... Now, I understand the reasons for those tears I shed. It was tears of joy of having you. Though distance between us kept us apart but I know it's only in body but never in heart. If I have one thing to thank right now... that's when you came into my life.
There is something going on deep within my heart. A strange feeling that I don't seem to understand. I don't really know why you are always on my mind every now and then. Every time you are near, I just don't know what to do. When you start to talk, I hardly find a word to say...it's like I’m out of breath. My heart beats so fast. I feel so lifted each time you're around. So much beauty surrounds me every time you smile. It’s like you are
everything...and I really think, I have fallen for you. I love you.
I hope and wish you felt the same way too. How I wish we could be together one day but if it would be far from happening, if love would not give a way for us because all you wanted from me is only my friendship, it’s just okay for me.
I will still love you no matter what. However, if you feel the same way too, you will definitely bring joy to my lonely soul. You will definitely give warm to my cold lonely nights. Colors will bloom along my way and you will see smile in my heart everyday. That is how much I love you. That is how much I wanted you in my life.
Yours
~~Shashank~~
Sad aah!! ....Sad!!
Still writing a kavana..Once that is ready...I shall put up here....Things are just so boring for me here.. I have become very silent..I dont talk to anyone ( there is no option to talk)....I just sit silent in my room..I just feel like a tiger which is locked up in a zoo and fed with food time to time...Four walls...TV for entertainment..No one can understand what the tiger is dying for....They think its hungry and feed with more food...Similarly I am here. No one can understand whats there in my mind...I have stopped crying which is very dangerous..I have stopped laughing which is more dangerous than that...But my soul cries for someone
continuously.....For the love which is not mine anymore....
Sunday morning woke up at around 7:30..Switch on TV to see American Pie in German in one of the channels..CHannel thrai(3)......As I had already seen the movie..It was much easier to correlate things on the TV..Was able to understand..Cooked egg fried rice with yesterdays remaining rice..Ate that and slept off again( just imagine!!!!!) .....Woke up at around 1 PM..Ate and watched movie..( The curious case of Benjamin)..Man it was so boring...Was about to sleep again....phew!!!!! Evening we went for a walk...Went to some Turkish hotel and ate Doner
Kebaps...It was yummy..!! Came back home...Shall update this blog and sleep off again....isn;t it boring....
I was born romantic..Love ruined me.....(Copied from I was born intelligent education ruined me)..SOrry guys...Need to fill pages in my blog...
Read one more creation For some one special...
My Beloved,
I feel you in the morning When at first I awake. Your thought is with me With each decision I make. You'd been around forever since the first breath I took. Now I have to go on alone but for love I need not look because of what you bestowed. In our short time together every memory will last in my heart forever and ever.
Although you've left and walk above, I'm never alone cause i'm wrapped in you love. Enjoy now your long awaited reward and feel the peace in your heart. What was taught to me will be taught to mine because you live on in me even after you're gone. I will always remember you.
Todays Menu:
==============
1. Morning - Egg fried rice..
2. Afternoon - Yesterdays Aloo sambaar + rice...
3. Evening - Doner kebap...
4. Night - Yesterdys Aloo sambaar ( sad) + rice....
Now dozing off guysssssssssssssss.................
Missing you all..Closing this blog with this interesting thought..
It’s not late.. Forget your egos, past……….., and express your love to others………. Be friendly…………… keep smiling and be happy for ever…
Chill :)
hope u guys are having a blast there in summer..I know its hot...Simply kidding..Enjoy life..Follow the above rule...Enjoyyyyyy....
Love,
Shashank
I will come for you
================
Just one more moment
That's all that's needed
Like wounded soldiers
In need of feeling
Time to be honest
This time I'm pleading
Please don't dwell on it
'Cause I didn't mean it
I can't believe I said
I'd lay my love on the ground
But it doesn't matter
'Cause I made it up
Forgive me now
Everyday I spent away
My soul's inside out
Gotta be someway
That I can make it up
To you now some how
By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
I was blindfolded
But now I'm seeing
My mind was closing
Now I'm believing
I finally know just
What it means
To let some one in
To see the side of me
That no one does or ever will
So if you're ever lost and
Find yourself all alone
I'd search forever
Just to bring you home
Here and now, it's a vow
By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
You know I'd always come for you
No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you
Yes, I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'll always come for you
No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you
I'd crawl across this world for you
Do anything you want me to
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you
You know I'll always come for you.............
With this song..I loved these songs as well and love to hear them again and again..Silbermond ( the video is superb where she explains the war field or some protest..Everything paused...She singing..It reminds me of Dil se..)..Pink(Please dont go..where she hits ..wounds her boy friend pleading him not to go..Though its very disturbing..Its one part of love..So violent yet cool).....I was a fan of Pink for her early Song as well( I am coming..So get this party started)..GeWinner ( I could not understand a single word in it..Its German...But song is too good....Sung underwater....Loved it)......With all these songs in my belly err head..err somwehere.......Writing this blog..
I have a better idea for the pink chaddi andholan guys in India...arrange for tickets for Muthalik and send him on a Europe tour in the summer...May be in the month of May..Next year he shall only arrange for Valentines day and give paanaka(Lemonaid)...for the couples....hee hee :)..He can as well give pink chaddis...he has never seen world.....Desha nu nodilla..Kosha nu odhilla...he is a Yemme :)
Right in front of my window..I could see Families getting ready to embrace the spring..They are cleaning their bikes..cycles....Getting ready to go out with their families...re-union...Its fun..I miss all those things..Though I have never been with my family since the age of 3....For me it was studies..then the job..Dont know where my 25 years went off...Life is too short...I am realising that now...I dont know how many hours I would have wasted to get a glimpse of a girl...Who is happily engaged to someone....I dont know how many hours I would have spent on
roads when the same girl was sitting and watching TV with her family..I dont know how many hours of my lifetime has been wasted travelling just to get a glimpse of her..Who is having her own family now...Seriously we guys are a shit...We never give our time to our parents...Running
behing a stupid girl....who runs behind a stupid guy...Its a cycle..Deadlock...Split this word...It has a meaning guys....Guys will be dead....Girls will be wed-locked...Deadlock was derived from here....Still reading this stupid analysis...Crazy..!!! Haah!! Shall update my photo to this blog tomorrow...You guys can do Thu!! yaakh!! on that...
I always believed(Atleast the middle class guys) ..We guys are like a shirt/trouser piece....by the time we stitch ourselves with our efforts..By the time we press ourselves with all the pressures...Get into something that can be worn...The customer(Rather I would like to call girl) would have chosen some ready made thing ..wear it and go....Girls prefer ready made
clothes..Because the looks are nice and well.....But they never understand the stitched ones are more durable..fit into anything ..Adjustable....The stitched rejected ones usually go to seconds market..Where someone would choose us without any option( Arranged marriage)....Crazzy thought haah!!
My sunday began on a sad note....This is a love note which I have written without knowing whom to give...May be I shall write it here...
Note:
====
( Read it in SRKs Voice for more fun and effect..Then you would cy more).
My Sweetheart,
My world turns into heaven when I found you. There so much happiness and joy knowing I have found my true love in you. I have been so glad and so proud your mine because you are one true person, so faithful and so loving.
You are different from any other person that I knew before. So much honesty and beauty comes from within you. When people look at you, they would come to like you too. My dad..My mom..My sisters..and my friends...I hope you will never change. I hope you will stay the same 'cause I love the way you are.
You are so amazing that you make me feel complete. I would not want any other person. I only want you in my life. I could not love anyone because my heart only cries for you. I would be useless and worthless in this world, no reason to live any longer if you are not here with me, if you will leave me. Loving you is my joy. I promise I will not exchange you for anything. You are my hope and my dream that is coming true.
So Many night I lay down and cry not knowing the reason why? Holding your photo and staring at you, uttering those sweet words just for you. I wish you can see me. I wish you can hear me. I wish you can kiss me and hold me tight.
I have this pain deep inside. Longing for you each day and night. I'm missing you my Love.
I'm missing you so badly. If I think about the future, just you and me together. I find myself smiling, for I know it will happen soon. This waiting made me long for you more and more each day. I love you my Darling. Now matter how far, no matter how long the waiting may be. I will love you more and more each day ... Now, I understand the reasons for those tears I shed. It was tears of joy of having you. Though distance between us kept us apart but I know it's only in body but never in heart. If I have one thing to thank right now... that's when you came into my life.
There is something going on deep within my heart. A strange feeling that I don't seem to understand. I don't really know why you are always on my mind every now and then. Every time you are near, I just don't know what to do. When you start to talk, I hardly find a word to say...it's like I’m out of breath. My heart beats so fast. I feel so lifted each time you're around. So much beauty surrounds me every time you smile. It’s like you are
everything...and I really think, I have fallen for you. I love you.
I hope and wish you felt the same way too. How I wish we could be together one day but if it would be far from happening, if love would not give a way for us because all you wanted from me is only my friendship, it’s just okay for me.
I will still love you no matter what. However, if you feel the same way too, you will definitely bring joy to my lonely soul. You will definitely give warm to my cold lonely nights. Colors will bloom along my way and you will see smile in my heart everyday. That is how much I love you. That is how much I wanted you in my life.
Yours
~~Shashank~~
Sad aah!! ....Sad!!
Still writing a kavana..Once that is ready...I shall put up here....Things are just so boring for me here.. I have become very silent..I dont talk to anyone ( there is no option to talk)....I just sit silent in my room..I just feel like a tiger which is locked up in a zoo and fed with food time to time...Four walls...TV for entertainment..No one can understand what the tiger is dying for....They think its hungry and feed with more food...Similarly I am here. No one can understand whats there in my mind...I have stopped crying which is very dangerous..I have stopped laughing which is more dangerous than that...But my soul cries for someone
continuously.....For the love which is not mine anymore....
Sunday morning woke up at around 7:30..Switch on TV to see American Pie in German in one of the channels..CHannel thrai(3)......As I had already seen the movie..It was much easier to correlate things on the TV..Was able to understand..Cooked egg fried rice with yesterdays remaining rice..Ate that and slept off again( just imagine!!!!!) .....Woke up at around 1 PM..Ate and watched movie..( The curious case of Benjamin)..Man it was so boring...Was about to sleep again....phew!!!!! Evening we went for a walk...Went to some Turkish hotel and ate Doner
Kebaps...It was yummy..!! Came back home...Shall update this blog and sleep off again....isn;t it boring....
I was born romantic..Love ruined me.....(Copied from I was born intelligent education ruined me)..SOrry guys...Need to fill pages in my blog...
Read one more creation For some one special...
My Beloved,
I feel you in the morning When at first I awake. Your thought is with me With each decision I make. You'd been around forever since the first breath I took. Now I have to go on alone but for love I need not look because of what you bestowed. In our short time together every memory will last in my heart forever and ever.
Although you've left and walk above, I'm never alone cause i'm wrapped in you love. Enjoy now your long awaited reward and feel the peace in your heart. What was taught to me will be taught to mine because you live on in me even after you're gone. I will always remember you.
Todays Menu:
==============
1. Morning - Egg fried rice..
2. Afternoon - Yesterdays Aloo sambaar + rice...
3. Evening - Doner kebap...
4. Night - Yesterdys Aloo sambaar ( sad) + rice....
Now dozing off guysssssssssssssss.................
Missing you all..Closing this blog with this interesting thought..
It’s not late.. Forget your egos, past……….., and express your love to others………. Be friendly…………… keep smiling and be happy for ever…
Chill :)
hope u guys are having a blast there in summer..I know its hot...Simply kidding..Enjoy life..Follow the above rule...Enjoyyyyyy....
Love,
Shashank
saturday: When my heart was broken....
Hey...
How does someone feel to be alone?
Amidst the crowd....
Peoples talk seems crap..
World seems so boring...
Days so so long...and nights greater than the day...
How does someone feel to laugh?
When he craves to cry...
When mind is like a balloon ..
Continuously Filled with tears...
In your thoughts.....
Ready to explode........Boom!!!
How does one feel to be serene?
When one is tumultuous inside...
When nothing looks good..except you..
When each breathe is so heavy....
The air which contains aroma of yours...
I feel pristine because of that....
How does it feel to be strong...?
When one is shattered...
Dreams Shattered inside...
Bcoz this much love I have...
For the love that does not exist.
How does it feel to pretend to be joyful?
When someone is dying every moment…
Dying to be in someones arms..
which is not his own now...
How does it feel to be deserted?
When one desperately need some one to talk to…
But the same desperation is not seen
in the recipient....
How does it feel to be resilient?
When some one has lost everything...
How does it feel?
When someone can’t feel anything….
When everything is So soona soona...
With this creation I want to start my todays blog...This is just my creation hdaaah!!
Days here have become quiet sunny...Temperature soaring upto 21 degrees.. Am not missing Bangalore at all..Weather
is just as in Chikmaglur or some hill station....Boring..I feel places meant to be cold should be cold ...If they
become warm ..Its like a foreigner wearing Saree...Though she will be looking pretty..Things are not in place...Something like that....Worst analogy..haah :) Who cares...my blog...huuH ahaha..!!
And one more analogy I can give is, the snow on the mountains and the dress wore by girls ....As the snow melts..The amount of dressing reduces...I have witnessed it here....The hotel/Suits where I am staying..THey have a restaurant of their own..A garden restaurant which obviously opens during the summer...It has opened...Its just below my window..I can see people having a nice time with their family..Celebrating Summer...rather spring..
I can see the hard flesh of the trees loosening up...Flexing their muscles for the spring action...I can see green
at the edge of the winter-shed trees...I can see flowers budding...I can sense this is going to be
colorful..Green, orange..Yellow..Blue..Red...WOw!! :) Feeling good..Already few plants have bloomed fully..I could
see the colorful Europe now...I can hear the birds chirping..I can see them happy..They are so excited ..As
excited as a girl in Chinese REstaurant(The time between order and Serve)..Cool..:)...Capturing these moments in
my heart...I feel great to witness this Mother Earths metamorphosis...
With all these, woke up a bit late around 8:30 AM..Took bath..Then myself and Pangi decided to go out somewhere..Finally we decided we shall go to Rewe..Its a shop just like metro in Bangalore....huge...We went there and saw things...They were pretty much costlier than Bangalore...So I did not buy anything...hmmmm :(.Pangi Bought a shoes for Ajays kid...So from that huge shop we both finally came out with a small shoes..In between Pangi never stops at one place to see anything..He is a little impatient...So I was lost in between..I was so petrified...Took 3 rounds of that shop...ouch!! Leg was aching...Finally my mind came into normal terms when I saw a huge figure seeing stuff there...That was Pangi..We came back home..Cooked the menu below...Ate and I slept off...Evening 6 I woke up...This time me Pangi and Brajesh went to Plarrer to buy something to drink..I bought mixed fruit juice..We came back...Pangi n Brajesh were planning to booze later that night...So I came back to room..Ate anna sambaar and fruits..Watched one movie...The movie name is sex drive....(Its a decent movie..dirty minds)....A comedy one..It is a comedy movie..In some scenes I could not even breathe ..I was laughing so much...Was still not getting sleep after the movie....So swtiched on TV..A horror movie was coming....Though not interested....I was watching...some thrill was there in that...It should be understood, love and horror have no language barriers...Crap!! It can happen to anyone...It was really scary..I compensated for that comedy haah!!..When I closed my eyes..I was getting that scary thoughts..Thu!! Why did I even watch that..:( Crap..
In between I had called my friends Anand, Aru & Latha...Spoke to them...Miss them a lot!! Missing Teja and Harsha also...
It was a boring Saturday..With nothign exciting done.....
Finally dozed offffffffff!!!!!!!!!!!!! Guyyyyyyy!!!
Todays Menu:
==========
1. Morning - Corn flakes..
2. Afternoon - Superb Aloo sambaar.
3. Evening - 3 difft types of pastries
4. Night - Aloo sambaar and Rice..
Have tagged these songs..Was listening to these songs today ..
1. Kisi roz tumse..Mullaakaath hogi..Meri jaan uss din mere saath hogi..Magar kab na jaane..yeh barsaath
hogi..Mera dil hein pyaasa..Mera dil akelaaa.....Zaraa tasweer se thu..Nikal ke saamne aa merri mehbooba...
2. Tum seh hi - Instrumental..When she runs and comes and hug him...for the last time...That kiss scene...I feel
happy ..Dont know why...Listening to that..So listened to that 10 times minimum..
3. And this one song from one new Album Mithoon....I am in love with this song..Silent and superb!!!!
Went so crazy after seeing this video..Video is so awesome...If anyone gets chance..See it...Have downloaded..
lyRics goes like this..:
Tuhi mera saaraa jahan hai,
Tuhi mere rab ki tarha hai.
Kahi tere dilki panaaho mei,
maine paya mujhe teri chaahon mei
jaise logaan jalta ho harpal kahi,
meri khwahish mei yu tu jalaa hai.
Tuhi mera saaraa jahan hai,
Tuhi mere rab ki tarha hai.
Bepanaah mai tujhko chahta hoon,
tuhi hai mere dil ka sukoon,
tu dikhe hai mujhko chaarsu.
Mai tujhe hi fakat dhundta hoon,
tuhi dil ki aarzoo.
Dilto mera ye aksar kare,
duur tujhse naa ekpal rahu.
Teri parchhayi bhi hai bohot dilnashi,
tu hasaa to ye aalam hasaa hai.
Jo lafzo se tuune buuna hai,
wo hasi pyar ka silsila hai.
Jo akho mei teri likha hai
wo akho se maine padha hai.
Tuhi mera saaraa jahan hai,
Tuhi mere rab ki tarha hai
Kahi tere dilki panaaho mei,
maine paya mujhe teri chaahon mei
jaise logaan jalta ho harpal kahi,
meri khwahish mei yu tu jalaa hai.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!
Love ,
Shashank
How does someone feel to be alone?
Amidst the crowd....
Peoples talk seems crap..
World seems so boring...
Days so so long...and nights greater than the day...
How does someone feel to laugh?
When he craves to cry...
When mind is like a balloon ..
Continuously Filled with tears...
In your thoughts.....
Ready to explode........Boom!!!
How does one feel to be serene?
When one is tumultuous inside...
When nothing looks good..except you..
When each breathe is so heavy....
The air which contains aroma of yours...
I feel pristine because of that....
How does it feel to be strong...?
When one is shattered...
Dreams Shattered inside...
Bcoz this much love I have...
For the love that does not exist.
How does it feel to pretend to be joyful?
When someone is dying every moment…
Dying to be in someones arms..
which is not his own now...
How does it feel to be deserted?
When one desperately need some one to talk to…
But the same desperation is not seen
in the recipient....
How does it feel to be resilient?
When some one has lost everything...
How does it feel?
When someone can’t feel anything….
When everything is So soona soona...
With this creation I want to start my todays blog...This is just my creation hdaaah!!
Days here have become quiet sunny...Temperature soaring upto 21 degrees.. Am not missing Bangalore at all..Weather
is just as in Chikmaglur or some hill station....Boring..I feel places meant to be cold should be cold ...If they
become warm ..Its like a foreigner wearing Saree...Though she will be looking pretty..Things are not in place...Something like that....Worst analogy..haah :) Who cares...my blog...huuH ahaha..!!
And one more analogy I can give is, the snow on the mountains and the dress wore by girls ....As the snow melts..The amount of dressing reduces...I have witnessed it here....The hotel/Suits where I am staying..THey have a restaurant of their own..A garden restaurant which obviously opens during the summer...It has opened...Its just below my window..I can see people having a nice time with their family..Celebrating Summer...rather spring..
I can see the hard flesh of the trees loosening up...Flexing their muscles for the spring action...I can see green
at the edge of the winter-shed trees...I can see flowers budding...I can sense this is going to be
colorful..Green, orange..Yellow..Blue..Red...WOw!! :) Feeling good..Already few plants have bloomed fully..I could
see the colorful Europe now...I can hear the birds chirping..I can see them happy..They are so excited ..As
excited as a girl in Chinese REstaurant(The time between order and Serve)..Cool..:)...Capturing these moments in
my heart...I feel great to witness this Mother Earths metamorphosis...
With all these, woke up a bit late around 8:30 AM..Took bath..Then myself and Pangi decided to go out somewhere..Finally we decided we shall go to Rewe..Its a shop just like metro in Bangalore....huge...We went there and saw things...They were pretty much costlier than Bangalore...So I did not buy anything...hmmmm :(.Pangi Bought a shoes for Ajays kid...So from that huge shop we both finally came out with a small shoes..In between Pangi never stops at one place to see anything..He is a little impatient...So I was lost in between..I was so petrified...Took 3 rounds of that shop...ouch!! Leg was aching...Finally my mind came into normal terms when I saw a huge figure seeing stuff there...That was Pangi..We came back home..Cooked the menu below...Ate and I slept off...Evening 6 I woke up...This time me Pangi and Brajesh went to Plarrer to buy something to drink..I bought mixed fruit juice..We came back...Pangi n Brajesh were planning to booze later that night...So I came back to room..Ate anna sambaar and fruits..Watched one movie...The movie name is sex drive....(Its a decent movie..dirty minds)....A comedy one..It is a comedy movie..In some scenes I could not even breathe ..I was laughing so much...Was still not getting sleep after the movie....So swtiched on TV..A horror movie was coming....Though not interested....I was watching...some thrill was there in that...It should be understood, love and horror have no language barriers...Crap!! It can happen to anyone...It was really scary..I compensated for that comedy haah!!..When I closed my eyes..I was getting that scary thoughts..Thu!! Why did I even watch that..:( Crap..
In between I had called my friends Anand, Aru & Latha...Spoke to them...Miss them a lot!! Missing Teja and Harsha also...
It was a boring Saturday..With nothign exciting done.....
Finally dozed offffffffff!!!!!!!!!!!!! Guyyyyyyy!!!
Todays Menu:
==========
1. Morning - Corn flakes..
2. Afternoon - Superb Aloo sambaar.
3. Evening - 3 difft types of pastries
4. Night - Aloo sambaar and Rice..
Have tagged these songs..Was listening to these songs today ..
1. Kisi roz tumse..Mullaakaath hogi..Meri jaan uss din mere saath hogi..Magar kab na jaane..yeh barsaath
hogi..Mera dil hein pyaasa..Mera dil akelaaa.....Zaraa tasweer se thu..Nikal ke saamne aa merri mehbooba...
2. Tum seh hi - Instrumental..When she runs and comes and hug him...for the last time...That kiss scene...I feel
happy ..Dont know why...Listening to that..So listened to that 10 times minimum..
3. And this one song from one new Album Mithoon....I am in love with this song..Silent and superb!!!!
Went so crazy after seeing this video..Video is so awesome...If anyone gets chance..See it...Have downloaded..
lyRics goes like this..:
Tuhi mera saaraa jahan hai,
Tuhi mere rab ki tarha hai.
Kahi tere dilki panaaho mei,
maine paya mujhe teri chaahon mei
jaise logaan jalta ho harpal kahi,
meri khwahish mei yu tu jalaa hai.
Tuhi mera saaraa jahan hai,
Tuhi mere rab ki tarha hai.
Bepanaah mai tujhko chahta hoon,
tuhi hai mere dil ka sukoon,
tu dikhe hai mujhko chaarsu.
Mai tujhe hi fakat dhundta hoon,
tuhi dil ki aarzoo.
Dilto mera ye aksar kare,
duur tujhse naa ekpal rahu.
Teri parchhayi bhi hai bohot dilnashi,
tu hasaa to ye aalam hasaa hai.
Jo lafzo se tuune buuna hai,
wo hasi pyar ka silsila hai.
Jo akho mei teri likha hai
wo akho se maine padha hai.
Tuhi mera saaraa jahan hai,
Tuhi mere rab ki tarha hai
Kahi tere dilki panaaho mei,
maine paya mujhe teri chaahon mei
jaise logaan jalta ho harpal kahi,
meri khwahish mei yu tu jalaa hai.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!
Love ,
Shashank
Friday, April 3, 2009
Koi bhi desh perfect nahi....RDB
Hellooooooooo,
Nelly Furtado feat james Morrison..Broken Strings..Loved this Video and lyrics as well...Today shall start with this...
======================================
Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything
When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real
Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real
Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
Awesome isn't it??? Was feeling great after seeing this video on MTV today morning..Its just my kind of video....Saddist haah!!!
And one thing I observed here..Why this country or continent or this part of world is so disciplined ...The largest road here is as big as MG Road and the usual roads are as big as Indiranagar 100ft road..yet there is no congestion.yet there is no bottlenecks..Why are the people so disciplined?? Why do they follow lanes...??? I think its all because of the strictest rules and the mightiest law and order in place...People are just scared of everything and everyone..There is no escape from law..They hold on to you and its equal to all....There is no
discrimination in the law...I guess that is what is lacking at my home country....Else it would be more beautiful than these conutries atleast....People there are not scared of law..Because there are loop holes everywhere...from tipping off a constable for jumping traffic to registration of a site under BBMP...remembering Rang De Basanti dialog...."koyi bhi desh perfect nahi ho tha hain..Perfect banaa na padta hain...."
Might be its MTV effect, I have thinking songs in English..Can you believe that...?? An abruptly evolved song in my mind goes like this...
" My hand is bleeding..
You are a white pigeon...
How can I hold you??
people think me I did the crime..
for the blood stains on ur body..
They put me in dungeon...
For they don't know..
You perched on me..
The wound is caused by you....
your claws so sharp.....
if i ain't hold you..
you would fly away...
far from my sight....
Bcozz You are a star...
So close yet so far..."
something like this..I have a tune for this also..I cant believe..I get so much colonized here...Hee hee :).....
Work has started off in full zoom....So concentrating and learning ..........For I am a new wild card entry...
Watching TV regularly....MTV obviously....Following these programs..Rock the love, musiK program, Toast of love, etc...I have started loving english songs as well...Regular being Nelly Furtado, Pink, Morrison, Eminem, recent album of Britney,...etc...So no problem in that sect atleast...Hee hee :)
Todays Food menu:
=============
1. Morning - Maggie noodles, one boiled egg and a glass of milk. Coffe at office
2. Afternoon - Chitranna(Lemon rice), and a boiled egg...Bittee juice I get here in office.
3. Evening - nothing :(
4. Night - Planning to cook potato sambaa and rice as usual..
Its summer time now..Temperature recorded is 14 degrees///..So going out with a single jacket....Its like Bangalore in the early winter..thats it...Planning to buy a camera...Sony ...Then surely I shall upload snaps and give the link here...Watch out this space..
Missing you all..
Have a great weekend....How I wish I could eat Idli Vada in SLV, how I wish I eat mysore pak in Venkateshwara sweets, how I wish I could eat bonda, bhajji, vade, pani puri..
Missing them a lot..!!!! :(
Love,
Shashank
Nelly Furtado feat james Morrison..Broken Strings..Loved this Video and lyrics as well...Today shall start with this...
======================================
Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything
When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real
Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real
Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
Awesome isn't it??? Was feeling great after seeing this video on MTV today morning..Its just my kind of video....Saddist haah!!!
And one thing I observed here..Why this country or continent or this part of world is so disciplined ...The largest road here is as big as MG Road and the usual roads are as big as Indiranagar 100ft road..yet there is no congestion.yet there is no bottlenecks..Why are the people so disciplined?? Why do they follow lanes...??? I think its all because of the strictest rules and the mightiest law and order in place...People are just scared of everything and everyone..There is no escape from law..They hold on to you and its equal to all....There is no
discrimination in the law...I guess that is what is lacking at my home country....Else it would be more beautiful than these conutries atleast....People there are not scared of law..Because there are loop holes everywhere...from tipping off a constable for jumping traffic to registration of a site under BBMP...remembering Rang De Basanti dialog...."koyi bhi desh perfect nahi ho tha hain..Perfect banaa na padta hain...."
Might be its MTV effect, I have thinking songs in English..Can you believe that...?? An abruptly evolved song in my mind goes like this...
" My hand is bleeding..
You are a white pigeon...
How can I hold you??
people think me I did the crime..
for the blood stains on ur body..
They put me in dungeon...
For they don't know..
You perched on me..
The wound is caused by you....
your claws so sharp.....
if i ain't hold you..
you would fly away...
far from my sight....
Bcozz You are a star...
So close yet so far..."
something like this..I have a tune for this also..I cant believe..I get so much colonized here...Hee hee :).....
Work has started off in full zoom....So concentrating and learning ..........For I am a new wild card entry...
Watching TV regularly....MTV obviously....Following these programs..Rock the love, musiK program, Toast of love, etc...I have started loving english songs as well...Regular being Nelly Furtado, Pink, Morrison, Eminem, recent album of Britney,...etc...So no problem in that sect atleast...Hee hee :)
Todays Food menu:
=============
1. Morning - Maggie noodles, one boiled egg and a glass of milk. Coffe at office
2. Afternoon - Chitranna(Lemon rice), and a boiled egg...Bittee juice I get here in office.
3. Evening - nothing :(
4. Night - Planning to cook potato sambaa and rice as usual..
Its summer time now..Temperature recorded is 14 degrees///..So going out with a single jacket....Its like Bangalore in the early winter..thats it...Planning to buy a camera...Sony ...Then surely I shall upload snaps and give the link here...Watch out this space..
Missing you all..
Have a great weekend....How I wish I could eat Idli Vada in SLV, how I wish I eat mysore pak in Venkateshwara sweets, how I wish I could eat bonda, bhajji, vade, pani puri..
Missing them a lot..!!!! :(
Love,
Shashank
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Salary day...Hurrah!!!
Today when I was coming in train/bus/whenever I got time I was thinking continously about one topic...These actress and their MMS clips/unusual acts....Chey!! If they have not done that sin...how bad it is for the society to see them like that..when they see that for themselves.......how would they feel??? Should the faulters be hanged?? or burnt alive???........I was also thinking about the college girls who get involved in such things..And what the hell they might be going through after that....These things really look sick to me...hmmmmmmmmmm!! Yes we are living in a crazy world where one person is spending his time/effort to do bad to the other for no reason..Crazy...After these things, one cannot be peaceful anywhere...U fart in a hotel room..the same video clip(farting video) would be added in youtube or sites like that...Crazzzy crazzy world..Sick!!!
With all these thoughts in my mind like a dark big cloud...Starting my day in office...Angry Abdullah is here as usual..He smiled at me..Mine as ever 100 Watts smile..The thoughts which I had as a cloud evaporated without even raining...and started thinking about these technical things...project etc...And salary....hmmm today my salary should get credited....Hurrah!!!...Was just hoping If I was in India...because after so many months I was getting my full salary and wanted to shop so much..Still have not bought sports shoes...And had a great wish to buy a leather jacket also....Hmmmmm :(...Also had a wish to join guitar classes..THat was the first thing I wanted to do...buy a guitar and join the classes....I always had a dream to propose a girl with my own song and with my own musical notes....that dream I guess will remain as a dream.......first a girl is not there in my life ..Second I cannot join classes anymore...So..I have to be Anu Malik throughout(Copy)... Then I wanted to eat like hell in KFC...So many
wishes I had cut on in the previous months.....I wanted to fulfill them......hmmm..Missing it..
With all these thoughts... was involved in a meeting with some hi fundoo so called scientists here...Actually I was shivering from inside.hmmmm...It was a bit scary.....!!! Still lot to learn....Not picking up the pace at all.....Really need to something about this...Still I am in India mood only....So hit myself twice and reminded that I m here to work....People are expecting some big time work from me..Crazzy!!!
With this poem..I want to end it. Few people are complaining that I dont have job..So writing less...
The love we used to share,
gone up in whirl winds,
will I ever love,
or ever live again,
I am tired of crying,
and I am done trying,
To remember all about you,
but when I close my eyes...
...All I see is you.
.................
All the love I am sending,
the memories I won't sell,
I know there must be an ending,
to the story I will tell,
I dream only of your love,
and happiness in life,
I try not to think of you,
but when I close my eyes...
..All I see is you.
Love,
Shashank
With all these thoughts in my mind like a dark big cloud...Starting my day in office...Angry Abdullah is here as usual..He smiled at me..Mine as ever 100 Watts smile..The thoughts which I had as a cloud evaporated without even raining...and started thinking about these technical things...project etc...And salary....hmmm today my salary should get credited....Hurrah!!!...Was just hoping If I was in India...because after so many months I was getting my full salary and wanted to shop so much..Still have not bought sports shoes...And had a great wish to buy a leather jacket also....Hmmmmm :(...Also had a wish to join guitar classes..THat was the first thing I wanted to do...buy a guitar and join the classes....I always had a dream to propose a girl with my own song and with my own musical notes....that dream I guess will remain as a dream.......first a girl is not there in my life ..Second I cannot join classes anymore...So..I have to be Anu Malik throughout(Copy)... Then I wanted to eat like hell in KFC...So many
wishes I had cut on in the previous months.....I wanted to fulfill them......hmmm..Missing it..
With all these thoughts... was involved in a meeting with some hi fundoo so called scientists here...Actually I was shivering from inside.hmmmm...It was a bit scary.....!!! Still lot to learn....Not picking up the pace at all.....Really need to something about this...Still I am in India mood only....So hit myself twice and reminded that I m here to work....People are expecting some big time work from me..Crazzy!!!
With this poem..I want to end it. Few people are complaining that I dont have job..So writing less...
The love we used to share,
gone up in whirl winds,
will I ever love,
or ever live again,
I am tired of crying,
and I am done trying,
To remember all about you,
but when I close my eyes...
...All I see is you.
.................
All the love I am sending,
the memories I won't sell,
I know there must be an ending,
to the story I will tell,
I dream only of your love,
and happiness in life,
I try not to think of you,
but when I close my eyes...
..All I see is you.
Love,
Shashank
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