Crazy poetry.....

Swami Vivekananda, among other things was a great football enthusiast ! What he said all those years ago still holds true.

“Life is the biggest game man has to play between the ultimate goalposts of birth and death. His dilemma stems from his decisions and relationships; whether he should steer the ball politically or emotionally, keeping control through his creative and artistic integrity. Winning or losing depends on how fairly he tackles the game. Because the rules are already set by the invisible Referee. All he needs to do is play his matches sincerely and without guile.”

Yes life is a football game....We get hurt..We run again...our each step is watched by almighty.....He is the one to give yellow card or red card....He is the one to judge the good and bad of our deeds and punish us accordingly.....

Saw an exciting match between Barcelona and Chelsea..The UEFA cup.....both are my favorite teams..I was so Confused as to which team to support..Barcelona has my favorite player Messi.....hence will be supporting Barcelona...That guy is like a mercury..Though match ended in a draw 0-0...I was top on my toes...on the bed...sitting with a hunch back..with pillow being the target for all my aggression...and anxiety.....While watching Football I was getting a thought..If god allows me choose my role in my next lifetime..My one option will be a football player in Europe(Not a cricketer, even Ganguly can play cricket)...Here after god they will be worshipped...Really!! The energy they have..The stamina..Run continuously for 1:30 hrs is not a matter of joke....My second option will be a superstar in the field of music...Singer, guitarist, drums anything...Thats the only job where people listen to u...People love your voice...I had this great wish of being an actor, really..I wanted to be an actor....how good it will be to potray a real life character...Acting like mad..acting like a husband..acting like a father...a great feeling isn't it....This dream I had looking at the great personalities like Amitabh, Aamir khan, Rajkumar.....but now have changed my opinion after seeing the actors from kannada film industry....Some host from U2 channel...Some one who is a friend of a producer...someone who has a gang of actor friends...someone who wants to be an actor for money..someone for his livelihood..someone for girls..someone for fame...Curly hair....colored brown...facial done...learn dance...lift some weight in gym...anyone can be a hero...Whats missing importantly is the passion of art...the passion one can see in the eyes of great actors...how they take each role so seriously.......FOr instance see Aamir khan in Dil chahta hain..when he cries when his dad calls him when he will be in Australia...I am still the deewana of that scene....how real .....Thats what I cant see in any hero or what they claim as Hero material......And one more interesting thing is, if a girl is born and brought up in Bangalore...They go behind these hero materials...atleast I have seen many in Basavanagudi....one girl whom I met very recently..She is from gandhi bazaar...She is seeing one Kannada Singer.....I dont want to name the singer...And one girl whom I met in Church street ( a Bangalorean) was seeing Diganth....and craving for him................yes..this conversation can go on...but i dont want to be an actor now....this whole thing has changed my perception of acting and the actors.....They all look like a bunch of same people to me....acting looks a business more than an art....

Here I want to tell one story, a very close friend of mine...He always wanted to be an actor..He is a very good dancer..but have not seen his acting skills yet....but after our B.E we all were searching for an IT job....We were looking at the 12K money for the coolie work we do...He went to Chennai to learn acting...Seriously....he was committed to both acting and love...He went to chennai...He worked so sincerely..he learnt camera work..he was dying to get a break...He has done whatever he can for that passion....but it did not pay for him...He wasted( I dont want to use that term here but.??? rather used) these 3 -4 years to fulfill his passion...but was never successful....I wish to see him act one day...I wish him all the best...!!!! now he is working as a test engineer....back to junk software life cycle..............Where people earn money for the disease they are sure they are going to get....where people live to work and dont work to live....They try hard ...achieve few spot awards...put everything to a project which ends in disaster.....or will be sacked without thinking twice....People start loving their company...I am from Infosys..I am from WIpro and all....but company lever loves them...I feel prostitutes and software engineers are the same..Unless u r liable to the party, you are not benifited....Sell urself...earn money....

Ironically, I shall give another instance...Where once can become an actor easily...Go to Devanahalli region..Catch a guy who had 5 acres of land....he will be having 25 crores bank balance...Do maskaa to him...befriend him....impress him..Praise him...thats it ...He will give one leaf of the 25 he has.....and next day u r a star......Some love story..New hero in....2 romantic songs...color the hair...and spread ur arms like ganesh does...You are a hero.........

With these things...

Everyone has to watch this short movie:

http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

Its an amazing one....

I enjoyed the film as a whole, but the most poignant moment in it were the children of the family and the expressive faces on them as soon as the food arrived.

The joy of expectancy, the innocent looks of satisfaction on having received the food was incredible ! For them sadly, the father bringing in the food was a part of their daily routine. In their gullibility they were perhaps of the opinion that this is what food looked like, or how it was procured. Could it be that this is what food looked like ! That this was the way it was meant to be. Perhaps the father never told them where it came from. But the excitement on their faces was in my mind the largest or the greatest irony of life. They looked at this offering as being the correct and only way food would be conveyed to them.

My heart beats for those little ones for their innocence........So people going to mac-d, KFC or whatver..see the fate of them and then order..........

Since Monday, work has been my everything...........I have embraced it with all the smile....Yes work gives me immense pleasure and satisfaction...I love to work and I love when work loves me in return....I cant sit Idle..I am a paranoid....waiting for that day May31st when excitement meets reality and the dreams are played real....Yes waiting for that day.......When I fly back from here..

I am missing all the IPL matched...bhooo hoo...crazzy...Just not liking that....watching score online...Anyway will be in office till 8 PM....But I miss watchin g it live...Yesterdays match was an awesome on DD v/s Rajashtan Royals....Yousuf Pathan was too much in that match...Great one....!!

Was eating puliogre from past two days for lunch..I am kind of bored of that now....Had cooked amazing beans sambaar with some green peas...So nights dinner was fun........with egg burjee...

The team here is growing...So many people are joining here...my friend rajkumar is also coming..So Austria trip planned..It will be Konigsee- Salzburg trip for two days...in May 2nd week....

Nothing exciting...Life is going off..off and off....hee hee :)....

One kavana from my kavanadha batthalike:
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Avalu nanna hrudayadha kadha mucchi hodhalendhu alutha kooraloobahudu...
Athava ee lokadalli ello chennagi badukuthiddhale endhu kushiyalluu baalabahudhu...

Kannugalannu mucchi hrudayadha baditha kelutha, avalu marali baruva neerikshe maadalubahudhu...
athava kannu tegedhu...avalu bittu hodha savi nenapugalalli,preethi na melukuthaa badukalabahudhu...

Nan Hrudayavannu kallagisikondu, bhaavanagelannu tadedhu avalannu dweshisalubahudhu...
Athava Avalottige hanchi konda preethiyanne hrudayavannu tumbisikondu maduravaagi balabahudhu...

Nanna Naalegalanu avalige samarpisee, Sundara nennegalige hogi alli badukalubahudhu..
Athava nenneya kushi ya bhaladalle naalegalannu payanisabahudhu...

Avalu hodhalendhu alutha koorabahudu..
Athava avala hrudyakke bandha hejjegalannu neneyutha nagutha baala bahudhu..

Atthu, manasaannu katti, kallaagisi, kannu mucchi novalli kooralubahudhu..
Athava avalu helidha maatugalannu paalisuttha, kan tegedhu, preeti indha, jeevanadalli nadiyaluuu bahudhu..

Ee thava athava gala madhye...kannu mucchidaagale.......ondhu prathibimba nanna kannu galalli moodi..minchinanthe bandhu..Nanna haleya garigalige badidhu..Hosa kanasugalige chiguru kottidhe..Ee chiguridha kanassalli, preethi emba hoovu mathendhu araluvudho..aa prathibimbadha prema poojege salluvudho....Endhu nenayuthaa aa raathriya tangali yelli kulithaaga..Yeko yeno ondhu kanna neera hani muthanthe bandhu nanna kenne mele chalisuthaa nanna manassannu vichalithagolisi..Mundhe saaguthaa..Nanna tutigala hoovu mele jenanthe kangolisi..Galladanchalli bandhu ninthidhe...Aa haniyu pratibimba paada kamalagalige samarpitha embanthe adhu attha haaruvaagale...Hrudayadha hattira baruvaaga aa pratibimbaa alle gocharisi..Bandhu Hrudayadha kadha badideethalla..Illi Hrudayadha hoodotavella onagi bhara gaaladalli iruvanthe...ee ondhu hani maayavanthe hoodatavannella rangaagisi...banna hacchi..Avugalannu toydhu..Hucchu aasegalige banna hacchidhe..Aasey aa gidagalindha Onagi udiridha elegalu kooda aa Hani teredha kadha dindha bandha gaalige sikku madhuravadha sangeetha midisidhe..Hrudyadha aakashadalli aaseya honnanne hothu tandha Chandira moodi, alli chalisthiruvaa manjanthaha modagalannu iniya na sanihadalli nachikonda neereyanthe kempaagisi sundara golisidhaane..Aa modagalu naa mundhu thaa mundhu endhu aa chandira na belakalli bandhu sundara gondu..Idee Hrudayave hotthikonda kaadgicchanthaagi preethi hora hommutidhe...

Ee kaadgicchu ondhu mareechike yaagi uladhare adhe kshema..Ettha ee kadgicchu nanne suttu bidatho antha yochisuthaa..haage aa pratibimbadha madilalli malagiruvanthe bhaavisi..Nanna niddhe lokakke maralidhe...Belagaagi hakki galu chilipili maadi nanna ebbisuvaaga..suryana kirana bandhu kannige baidhaaga..Naa eddhu kulithu..Kenne na savaridaaga aascharyakke ondhu hani nijawaaglu nintidhe..Aa sundara kanassu nijawo embanthe bhaasavaagi...manollasadindha mundhe nadidhe...

Ninagaage kaayuthhiruva..Ninna preethiya...Shashanka..




Ending with these quotes:
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I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.

I understand with love comes pain, but why did I have to love so much?

There is one pain I often feel, which you will never know. It is caused by the absence of you.

Love,
Shashank