This is my last resort..Suffocation..No breathing.

Updating my blog after a long long time..Was not interested in updating ...But someone forced me to do so..So writing again guys...If u were really missing it..I was astonished by the fact that my blog has become super famous...Though not so much really...But I found it so strange when one of my chat friend asked me..Is this blog yours...Its so good...It touched me..Inspired me to write it again...

For all the people who wants to know why I did not write the blog: this song from Papa Roacha would aptly answer that question....I am listening to this song nowadays

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding

This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces
Ive reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And Im contemplating suicide

Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine

I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils

Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me in fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Nothings alright
Nothing is fine
Im running and Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
Im crying

I cant go on living this way

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And Im contemplating suicide

Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Nothings alright
Nothing is fine
Im running and Im crying

I cant go on living this way
Cant go on
Living this way
Nothings alright

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Ok with all that.....I am so terrified about spending 4 days here. Its a long ...Very looooooooooooong weekend...GOsh!!! How I wish I was in Bangalore....If I was in Shimoga....Spending time with family......Missing all those moments......:(
With these thoughts heavy in my heart like a dark cloud. Missing my friends so terribly....We would have gone definitely on some long trip...Chey!! This was the right time....Hmmmm:( Miss them a lot......

SOrry not able to write much!!!!!........I am not in a state to write things...............

Love,
Shashank